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So Colt & Tony came down on Friday, Thank God! lol Colt texted me somewhere around 10:30 saying they might come to Akron, then at like 11:30 telling me they were going to Adams, they’ll be there in about an hour. So, I ask him to swing by and pick me up on the way, since I’m like, oh, a 20second drive from Adams St and it’s chilly and I didn’t really wanna walk it. He tells me it’ll be too late and maybe he’ll ask Cassie to pick me up. I was half in the process of getting ready (basically finding something to wear lol), but about 20min later I texted him telling him to forget it and to just let me know when they’re like 5-10min away and I’ll meet them there if I decide to go. He texted me that Cassie was coming to pick me up, and I got a text from her at the same time lol So whatever, I finished getting ready and yeah, Cassie showed up and when we got to Adams Colt & Tony had just gotten there as well as they were just getting out of their car, and Cassie and I were both like, So, why couldn’t they pick you/me up lol Whatever…that irritated me that Colt was like, “It’ll be so late” blah blah blah, whatever that was about, cuz again., like 20 second drive away from the bar lol But whatever. I, again, talked to Tony most of the night. Including about Rob. I was like, “I’m not attracted to him” He’s like, “So” lol God love him lol And continued, “If he’s good to you and makes you feel good about yourself, then what’s the problem” lol And then I keep comparing it to King Of Queens, and he thinks he’s fat so he’s like, “Now hey, cuz in my relationship I’m the King, I’m the fat one” then says something about your taste and whatnot, and I’m like, “Tony, shut up, you’re not fat and you’re fucking Hot” lol OMG and a little later he asked if a couple Monday shows ago if he was making out with me, cuz he was REALLY drunk and said he didn’t remember much and Cassie, DeAnna, and Colt were teasing him about it or something I dunno lol…and I’m like, “Um…well…yeah…” lol He’s like, “Oh…ooops…sorry…Why don’t you just tell me to get the fuck off if I start doing shit like that” lol I shrugged, “Eh, what do I care” lol
Then Tony took off to chat in private with Cassie leaving me and Colt, and we’d barely said 2 words to each other all night lol We started talking about something, which I forget, then the Playboy Store stuff he’s been going on about all week lol Then when Tony & Cassie came back Colt says to me, “By the way, if I piss you off, I don’t mean to…apparently I just piss everyone off these days” I ask why and he says how DeAnna’s pissed as all Hell at him for something last weekend. Something about leaving her in Cleveland, I dunno…I didn’t get the whole shit, but they were all bitching about her being so dramatic and everything, and after that rant ceased I said to Tony, “Damn, how do you people talk about me when I’m not around!” Cuz that ain’t the first time I’ve heard Colt talk shit about DeAnna. Tony just said they really don’t, except when they were talking about the Tony making out with me stuff lmao But he also mentioned how I get really dramatic and emotional when I’m drunk and everything under the sun seems to offend me lol Didn’t really say they talk about that, but did mention it to me. I was like “Yeah, duh…that’s why I’m not drinking” lol Of course, Colt went and got him a 3rd long island like 5min before the bar was shut off and drinks needed to be done…so I helped Tony choke it down, cuz well, he was also half forcing it down my throat too lol
Oh, but yeah, so then we left, and Cassie was like, to Colt, “Are you taking her home?” and he says to ask Tony, and tony was trying to stop Baby Girl from killing someone outside, then Colt stepped in as well, and Cassie & I are just like, “Ok, someone’s gonna get stabbed” lol But all was fine, and it was jackass bartender Mike that Baby Girl was trying to go after…Colkt was like, “I was so damn close to letting her loose on him!” lol Then we started walking to car….Cassie & Tony both [arked in the little lot of the drive through next to the bar. A car next to Tony’s had 2 drunk ass guys in it who kept asking me for cigarettes no matter how much I said I don’t have any cuz I don’t smoke lol Then the one started hitting on me and kept hollering at me when I was trying to talk to Colt, and it was Really pissing me off lol But I managed to get out to Colt that I had to Playboy stuff for him in Cassie’s car, then I just walked off to walk home, I was getting too irritated by those guys and I wanted out of there lol I was like halfway down Arch when Colt called me, “Where the fuck are you?!” lol I told him I was walking home and I was on Arch almost home he’s like, “We’ve been driving around looking for you” I cut through Summa parking lot, so they wouldn’t have seen me anyway they’d have gone lol He’s like, “Do you want us to come get you?” lol I’m like, “I’m almost home hun, I’m good lol “Are you sure?!” lol I says Yes. He’s like “Alright…” lol With Tony in the background, “BYE! I LOVE YOU!” lmao I just kept thinking, God they shouldn’t be driving lol Then I get home and Colt calls me again, “I’m like, “Yes dear” and he starts to say something and then was like, “Oh, shit, I called the wrong person, I’m sorry” lol And was like,”Did you make it home ok?” I says Yes. He says, “Are you sure?!” lol “Yes Colt, I’m fine” “Ok, good. Well I’ll talk to you tomorrow!” lol God love him lol
I can’t stand not having internet!! They’re coming tonight so it had BETTER be fixed!! This is bullshit! I’m so bored…I need internet when I’m bored! Lol
OMG I forgot, Friday, before we left the bar Tony, Colt, Chad, & Mike(good Mike-Chad’s man lol) were talking about Thanksgiving and how they wanted to bring in all the families together at Colt & Tony’s place, and Chad was play fighting with Tony about the better place and the bigger dining rooms lol And Tony said something about his grandma and Chad was all cute playful dramatic about it like, “OH! You HAD to bring in grandma’s! We don’t have grandma’s to play that game! You had to bring in the grandma card!” or something, it was hilarious lol And Tony started going on about the awesomeness of his grandma and how she’s been a fag hag since like, the 50s and before he was like, “She like, started the fag hags!” and “I could tell her that everyone I know is gay and I don’t know a single straight person and she’s be like, ‘that’s so awesome I want to meet them all! I love those people!’” lol Cassie’s like, “That is so gonna be you” lol I was like, “Tony I love your grandma, I want to be your grandma!” He’s like, “You ARE my grandma…like 50yrs younger” lol He said she’s like 72 I think, something like that lol
I wanna be a fag hag grandma…except I don’t want kids lol I decided that I’ll find a little gay boy to adopt someday lol Like, that 10yr old that you KNOW is gay…:P
And Tony was going on about how he needs to go to the dentist but doesn’t cuz he can’t afford it…I’m like, yeah, me too lol I meant to jokingly say, “Well, I get my benefits Dec 1st, we can pretend to be married and you can use me benefits” lol And OMG their stupid ass roommate is moving out! lol I wanna live with them lol That’s right, that’s what Colt was going on about before the Playboy when Tony & Cassie went off…that guy pissed Colt off yet again over text while we were at the bar lol
Oh, anyway….I dunno…that’s it.
Well…about Rob, yeah, Tony also told me to either take a picture of him to show him or to bring him out one night lol Maybe I’ll take the picture lol And suddenly Rob decided that he’ll text again (When the first time we went out he said he got rid of texts cuz it ran his phone bill up too much) but he was texting me over and over on Saturday, it was getting on my nerves. But, I had left my work key at work on Friday and told him and wanted him to get it for me cuz he works weekends so I had to communicate lol Everytime my text ringer would go off though I’d get so damn annoyed…a few times it was ok cuz it was Colt, but it was usually Rob. He dropped my key off last night…I’m so confused on what I want it’s not even funny lol After talking to Tony, plus my own conflicting emotions…omg! lol I almost wanted to be like, “Come on in!” lol but I didn’t lol I’m not down with his clinginess and neediness cuz I feel suffocated, and then my aversion to relationships and anything like that. And I have Rob telling me that if I want my key I’ll have to hang out with him Sunday and says, “I just wanna spend time with you and get to know you. Can’t you tell??” lol Uh, DUH! lol But then he got called into work on Saturday night and found my key and said he’d bring it over when he was done. I figured he’d be like, “I’m outside” but no, he came to my door…the main house door was unlocked, so he was right at my apt door. Ugh lol But I was so tempted to just be like, “Come on in”, and see what happens lol But I didn’t. The one thing that gets me is he does have a cute little smile….and I am a sucker for a cute smile lol But I let him go left it to “See you Monday” Then he texted me later…lol…saying that his boss called him and told him to go in at 9 on Monday, so he could give me a ride to work if I wanted lol I didn’t respond. He usually doesn’t go in until 11, but I go in at 9. But yeah…I just dunno what to do…what I WANT to do…it’s annoying! lol
But oh yeah, I called that Grandma’s Place day care I applied to for evenings and weekends…the one that’s open until midnight. Ok, she tells me that there’s several people with application ahead of mine for one, and then they’re also waiting for their enrollment to go up before they can do anything anyway…But, ALSO continues to tell me (cuz as soon as I said my name she knew my application and who I was and stuff), that the administrator doesn’t like the fact that I’d be working at 2 day cares because it’s kind of a conflict of interest. I’m like, WTF! lol Ok, for one…I’d be working at NIGHT…and kids should be fucking sleeping during the hours I want ANYWAY…so it’s not like it’ll be a big curriculum thing like normal. So that’s fucking BULLSHIT! Plus, I’ve known people working at 2 damn day cares at the same time!! So this is crap. I dunno how long it would be anyway cuz who knows when they’ll get enough enrollments to add people. But, maybe the people ahead of me will have already gotten jobs and stuff so then they’ll get to me and actually call me in and I’ll be like, “Well, I want the midnight shifts, so yeah…lol I might go ahead and work Monday nights too even thoug Colt’s shows…:\ I dunno. If it would keep being that Tony wouldn’t go until then, getting here around midnight like before, then I could do that, but I dunno, cuz I’d wanna go see me peeps, but I need money lol I’l at least try to work til like 10 on Mondays. I still also need better hours at Kid Space cuz I wanna go in at like 7 and get out at like 3-4. If I get off at 3 then I forgo my hour break…which I do like having cuz it’s during nap lol…maybe I’ll do 3:30 and take a half hour break at least lol I want another job though. I came close to asking CVS if they’d be hiring for evenings since they’re 24hrs. I don’t wanna work past midnight on weekdays though lol But I also don’t wanna work at a store lol Damn Grandma’s Place. We’ll see if I ever hear from them. If I could just get a night job at Summa that’s be GREAT…unfortunately, I’m getting “Sorry about your luck” emails from the positions I’ve applied for online lol I should call them or something to see if there’s be something else that’s not on they’re employment opportunity site that I could do, cuz I remember Elyse saying something about once being offered a job there for like, hangin and playing with sick kids an stuff, but then she took the job at Magic’s instead. Again, we’ll see…:\
Colt was having a bad time cuz he has a $200-something cell bill(it’s 2mths overdue) that’s due on Friday and he has no money. I was so tempted to help him, let me tell you what. And then Cassie was freaking cuz she’s $100 short on her rent and she’s never been in that position…so that would explain why she hasn’t been shelling out for Colt recently, With all the shit he wants, whether stuff or going out lol Now, not GIVING it to him, but LENDING it to him and expecting to be paid back. Now, I trust Colt and all…but this money and everything’s different when money is involved, and this isn’t just like 20 bucks, it’s pushing $300. And Colt blows money on his nicotine addiction lol and at the bar(although when he goes to Adams St his brother is the bartender so his and Tony’s drinks are usually at least half off lol). If I had a second job right now I would help him because I’d have more income coming in. I mean, I have pushing $3000 in the bank and all, and I’m getting paid next Friday so bump it up to $3500+ but still lol…and I also have rent due next week so that’s also minus $475 lol Anyway…I don’t wanna play that game and have money screw us over lol Plus I’d also just feel bad that I shell out for Colt for all this stuff, and not Tony lol Cuz I’m also tempted to get Colt the shorts and/or a shirt he wants from the Playboy online store lol But the shorts he wants are $30-something…the shirts are on sale for like $9 and $12…but he Really wants the shorts lol I should tell Colt I’ll buy them for him and to consider it an early Christmas gift, and also ask about something to get Tony, too lol…Cuz seriously…I talk to Tony about more personal stuff more than Colt, and I’m with Tony and talking to him more when we all go out…like, I was talking to Tony the entire time on Friday and then he’s like, “Hang with Colt for a few, I wanna talk to Cassie” and those 2 left and I was sitting there alone with Colt like, Ok, now what? lol But once we start we’re usually fine, but most of the time he and Cassie are glued to hip…then like a couple weeks ago, I stick with Tony and him with Cassie and then they drop me off and he texts me like, “What did I do? Why didn’t you hardly talk to me?” lol Umm…cuz YOU didn’t talk to ME either…you were hardly around! lol Can’t be mad about that cuz I do that shit sometimes too lol Bt then later he got 2 shots for him and Cassie when they were having another semi-private pow wow and Tony was talking to some other guy then Colt got them shots and they did their bff thing and downed them and then he turns around to me like, “I’m not ignoring you, I promise!!” with his cute little smile lol I was like, “Didn’t say you were, you don’t have to be like that” lol But still, the constant texts are beginning to get on my last nerve lol My new song for Rob…P!NK’s Leave Me Alone, I’m Lonely….except not so much the “I’m Lonely” part lmao
Anyway…I’m gonna shut up now! lol
T.T.F.N. :-*
Then Tony took off to chat in private with Cassie leaving me and Colt, and we’d barely said 2 words to each other all night lol We started talking about something, which I forget, then the Playboy Store stuff he’s been going on about all week lol Then when Tony & Cassie came back Colt says to me, “By the way, if I piss you off, I don’t mean to…apparently I just piss everyone off these days” I ask why and he says how DeAnna’s pissed as all Hell at him for something last weekend. Something about leaving her in Cleveland, I dunno…I didn’t get the whole shit, but they were all bitching about her being so dramatic and everything, and after that rant ceased I said to Tony, “Damn, how do you people talk about me when I’m not around!” Cuz that ain’t the first time I’ve heard Colt talk shit about DeAnna. Tony just said they really don’t, except when they were talking about the Tony making out with me stuff lmao But he also mentioned how I get really dramatic and emotional when I’m drunk and everything under the sun seems to offend me lol Didn’t really say they talk about that, but did mention it to me. I was like “Yeah, duh…that’s why I’m not drinking” lol Of course, Colt went and got him a 3rd long island like 5min before the bar was shut off and drinks needed to be done…so I helped Tony choke it down, cuz well, he was also half forcing it down my throat too lol
Oh, but yeah, so then we left, and Cassie was like, to Colt, “Are you taking her home?” and he says to ask Tony, and tony was trying to stop Baby Girl from killing someone outside, then Colt stepped in as well, and Cassie & I are just like, “Ok, someone’s gonna get stabbed” lol But all was fine, and it was jackass bartender Mike that Baby Girl was trying to go after…Colkt was like, “I was so damn close to letting her loose on him!” lol Then we started walking to car….Cassie & Tony both [arked in the little lot of the drive through next to the bar. A car next to Tony’s had 2 drunk ass guys in it who kept asking me for cigarettes no matter how much I said I don’t have any cuz I don’t smoke lol Then the one started hitting on me and kept hollering at me when I was trying to talk to Colt, and it was Really pissing me off lol But I managed to get out to Colt that I had to Playboy stuff for him in Cassie’s car, then I just walked off to walk home, I was getting too irritated by those guys and I wanted out of there lol I was like halfway down Arch when Colt called me, “Where the fuck are you?!” lol I told him I was walking home and I was on Arch almost home he’s like, “We’ve been driving around looking for you” I cut through Summa parking lot, so they wouldn’t have seen me anyway they’d have gone lol He’s like, “Do you want us to come get you?” lol I’m like, “I’m almost home hun, I’m good lol “Are you sure?!” lol I says Yes. He’s like “Alright…” lol With Tony in the background, “BYE! I LOVE YOU!” lmao I just kept thinking, God they shouldn’t be driving lol Then I get home and Colt calls me again, “I’m like, “Yes dear” and he starts to say something and then was like, “Oh, shit, I called the wrong person, I’m sorry” lol And was like,”Did you make it home ok?” I says Yes. He says, “Are you sure?!” lol “Yes Colt, I’m fine” “Ok, good. Well I’ll talk to you tomorrow!” lol God love him lol
I can’t stand not having internet!! They’re coming tonight so it had BETTER be fixed!! This is bullshit! I’m so bored…I need internet when I’m bored! Lol
OMG I forgot, Friday, before we left the bar Tony, Colt, Chad, & Mike(good Mike-Chad’s man lol) were talking about Thanksgiving and how they wanted to bring in all the families together at Colt & Tony’s place, and Chad was play fighting with Tony about the better place and the bigger dining rooms lol And Tony said something about his grandma and Chad was all cute playful dramatic about it like, “OH! You HAD to bring in grandma’s! We don’t have grandma’s to play that game! You had to bring in the grandma card!” or something, it was hilarious lol And Tony started going on about the awesomeness of his grandma and how she’s been a fag hag since like, the 50s and before he was like, “She like, started the fag hags!” and “I could tell her that everyone I know is gay and I don’t know a single straight person and she’s be like, ‘that’s so awesome I want to meet them all! I love those people!’” lol Cassie’s like, “That is so gonna be you” lol I was like, “Tony I love your grandma, I want to be your grandma!” He’s like, “You ARE my grandma…like 50yrs younger” lol He said she’s like 72 I think, something like that lol
I wanna be a fag hag grandma…except I don’t want kids lol I decided that I’ll find a little gay boy to adopt someday lol Like, that 10yr old that you KNOW is gay…:P
And Tony was going on about how he needs to go to the dentist but doesn’t cuz he can’t afford it…I’m like, yeah, me too lol I meant to jokingly say, “Well, I get my benefits Dec 1st, we can pretend to be married and you can use me benefits” lol And OMG their stupid ass roommate is moving out! lol I wanna live with them lol That’s right, that’s what Colt was going on about before the Playboy when Tony & Cassie went off…that guy pissed Colt off yet again over text while we were at the bar lol
Oh, anyway….I dunno…that’s it.
Well…about Rob, yeah, Tony also told me to either take a picture of him to show him or to bring him out one night lol Maybe I’ll take the picture lol And suddenly Rob decided that he’ll text again (When the first time we went out he said he got rid of texts cuz it ran his phone bill up too much) but he was texting me over and over on Saturday, it was getting on my nerves. But, I had left my work key at work on Friday and told him and wanted him to get it for me cuz he works weekends so I had to communicate lol Everytime my text ringer would go off though I’d get so damn annoyed…a few times it was ok cuz it was Colt, but it was usually Rob. He dropped my key off last night…I’m so confused on what I want it’s not even funny lol After talking to Tony, plus my own conflicting emotions…omg! lol I almost wanted to be like, “Come on in!” lol but I didn’t lol I’m not down with his clinginess and neediness cuz I feel suffocated, and then my aversion to relationships and anything like that. And I have Rob telling me that if I want my key I’ll have to hang out with him Sunday and says, “I just wanna spend time with you and get to know you. Can’t you tell??” lol Uh, DUH! lol But then he got called into work on Saturday night and found my key and said he’d bring it over when he was done. I figured he’d be like, “I’m outside” but no, he came to my door…the main house door was unlocked, so he was right at my apt door. Ugh lol But I was so tempted to just be like, “Come on in”, and see what happens lol But I didn’t. The one thing that gets me is he does have a cute little smile….and I am a sucker for a cute smile lol But I let him go left it to “See you Monday” Then he texted me later…lol…saying that his boss called him and told him to go in at 9 on Monday, so he could give me a ride to work if I wanted lol I didn’t respond. He usually doesn’t go in until 11, but I go in at 9. But yeah…I just dunno what to do…what I WANT to do…it’s annoying! lol
But oh yeah, I called that Grandma’s Place day care I applied to for evenings and weekends…the one that’s open until midnight. Ok, she tells me that there’s several people with application ahead of mine for one, and then they’re also waiting for their enrollment to go up before they can do anything anyway…But, ALSO continues to tell me (cuz as soon as I said my name she knew my application and who I was and stuff), that the administrator doesn’t like the fact that I’d be working at 2 day cares because it’s kind of a conflict of interest. I’m like, WTF! lol Ok, for one…I’d be working at NIGHT…and kids should be fucking sleeping during the hours I want ANYWAY…so it’s not like it’ll be a big curriculum thing like normal. So that’s fucking BULLSHIT! Plus, I’ve known people working at 2 damn day cares at the same time!! So this is crap. I dunno how long it would be anyway cuz who knows when they’ll get enough enrollments to add people. But, maybe the people ahead of me will have already gotten jobs and stuff so then they’ll get to me and actually call me in and I’ll be like, “Well, I want the midnight shifts, so yeah…lol I might go ahead and work Monday nights too even thoug Colt’s shows…:\ I dunno. If it would keep being that Tony wouldn’t go until then, getting here around midnight like before, then I could do that, but I dunno, cuz I’d wanna go see me peeps, but I need money lol I’l at least try to work til like 10 on Mondays. I still also need better hours at Kid Space cuz I wanna go in at like 7 and get out at like 3-4. If I get off at 3 then I forgo my hour break…which I do like having cuz it’s during nap lol…maybe I’ll do 3:30 and take a half hour break at least lol I want another job though. I came close to asking CVS if they’d be hiring for evenings since they’re 24hrs. I don’t wanna work past midnight on weekdays though lol But I also don’t wanna work at a store lol Damn Grandma’s Place. We’ll see if I ever hear from them. If I could just get a night job at Summa that’s be GREAT…unfortunately, I’m getting “Sorry about your luck” emails from the positions I’ve applied for online lol I should call them or something to see if there’s be something else that’s not on they’re employment opportunity site that I could do, cuz I remember Elyse saying something about once being offered a job there for like, hangin and playing with sick kids an stuff, but then she took the job at Magic’s instead. Again, we’ll see…:\
Colt was having a bad time cuz he has a $200-something cell bill(it’s 2mths overdue) that’s due on Friday and he has no money. I was so tempted to help him, let me tell you what. And then Cassie was freaking cuz she’s $100 short on her rent and she’s never been in that position…so that would explain why she hasn’t been shelling out for Colt recently, With all the shit he wants, whether stuff or going out lol Now, not GIVING it to him, but LENDING it to him and expecting to be paid back. Now, I trust Colt and all…but this money and everything’s different when money is involved, and this isn’t just like 20 bucks, it’s pushing $300. And Colt blows money on his nicotine addiction lol and at the bar(although when he goes to Adams St his brother is the bartender so his and Tony’s drinks are usually at least half off lol). If I had a second job right now I would help him because I’d have more income coming in. I mean, I have pushing $3000 in the bank and all, and I’m getting paid next Friday so bump it up to $3500+ but still lol…and I also have rent due next week so that’s also minus $475 lol Anyway…I don’t wanna play that game and have money screw us over lol Plus I’d also just feel bad that I shell out for Colt for all this stuff, and not Tony lol Cuz I’m also tempted to get Colt the shorts and/or a shirt he wants from the Playboy online store lol But the shorts he wants are $30-something…the shirts are on sale for like $9 and $12…but he Really wants the shorts lol I should tell Colt I’ll buy them for him and to consider it an early Christmas gift, and also ask about something to get Tony, too lol…Cuz seriously…I talk to Tony about more personal stuff more than Colt, and I’m with Tony and talking to him more when we all go out…like, I was talking to Tony the entire time on Friday and then he’s like, “Hang with Colt for a few, I wanna talk to Cassie” and those 2 left and I was sitting there alone with Colt like, Ok, now what? lol But once we start we’re usually fine, but most of the time he and Cassie are glued to hip…then like a couple weeks ago, I stick with Tony and him with Cassie and then they drop me off and he texts me like, “What did I do? Why didn’t you hardly talk to me?” lol Umm…cuz YOU didn’t talk to ME either…you were hardly around! lol Can’t be mad about that cuz I do that shit sometimes too lol Bt then later he got 2 shots for him and Cassie when they were having another semi-private pow wow and Tony was talking to some other guy then Colt got them shots and they did their bff thing and downed them and then he turns around to me like, “I’m not ignoring you, I promise!!” with his cute little smile lol I was like, “Didn’t say you were, you don’t have to be like that” lol But still, the constant texts are beginning to get on my last nerve lol My new song for Rob…P!NK’s Leave Me Alone, I’m Lonely….except not so much the “I’m Lonely” part lmao
Anyway…I’m gonna shut up now! lol
T.T.F.N. :-*