Oct 24, 2007 13:28
Ya know...I need to start communicating with people and stop being a vengeful bitch by ignoring them if they've pissed me off for whatever reason...it'll save a lot of stress. Colt texted me last night...nothing to do with Monday night...just wanted to know if I've been to the Playboy online store lol I brought up MOnday and he proceeded to tell me that Tony dind't even go and he had to bend over backwards trying to find a ride. So if I should be the slightest pissed at anyone it's Tony for not even telling me he wasn't going after all, cuz he had already told me he was lol But whatever, I'm over it. However, I'm not over my seclusion plan. Unless anything else has been scheduled, his next Belt show isn't until the end of Nov, so there's the month I was taking for myself lol But if somethign does get scheduled before that, and they call me...well, I'll have to go...lmao However...then there's Rob lol
So, remember how I said he wanted me to do something last night but I couldn't because of my Communicable Disease class...well, he comes up later and says he changed his plans for Thursday so I could go if I wanted...OMG! I swear...JUST when I think I've done enough ignoring that he's over it...he comes back with a vengence! lmao I dunno. He wants me to go to a comedy club to see a hypnotist. *rolls eyes* Carla thinks I'm like, psycho for brushing him off, cuz she just think he's the greatest thing since sliced bread lol OMGI can't take it! lol
And I half got in trouble again today...well, yesterday but my boss talked to me about it today cuz there was no time yesterday cuz it was PSYCHOTIC here yesterday! I was having a horrible day yesterday anyway cuz I was already in a bad mood, and I can usually dismiss the bad mood(cuz i'm in one like 90% of the time lol) at work cuz of the kids distracting me from what's bothering me, but it didn't work yesterday. And it was the kids pissing everyone off yesterday in the whole center..the baby room had serious issues yesterday as well, and it wasn't even the kids bothering me, it was Carla. I've been doing fine working with her...it hasn't been near as bad as I thought it would be, although she still irritates me lol But yesterday she kept talking to me like I was a child and it was fucking pissing me off, and then DeAnna stuck her nose in it and we got lippy with each other lol But basically today she just said it didn't look like I was doing anything or connecting with kids or some bullshit....bite me DeAnna...half those kids like me better than Carla anyway...she pops in for a minute every 2 hours and thinks she knows what I do and what's going on. I was pissed. And then wanted to know if I would be able to hadnle 12 preschoolers by myself. I'm thinking, Bitch, I TOLD you when you asked me to do preschool that I didn't want preschool cuz they drove me up a wall...and NOW you wanna kow if I could handle it lol Whatever. I told her Carla was pissing me off and I told her I thought I'd be fine once I got in my own room alone lol Then she goes all, "I know I'm your boss but I also want to be your friend and if something's bothering you or you need activity ideas to settle everyone down I want you to be able to come to me...not just you, everyone." I'm like, Riiiiight lol No, I like DeAnna, but I was seriously pissed yesterday, and I was pissed during that whole conversation lol I'm seriously thinking of calling Barb (HR of the Health Center) and seeing what positions around the Health Center are open that I'd be qualified for, and to keep me posted on that lol BUT...I at least want the opportunity to get into the preschool class first...cuz I've already done so much damn work for it! lol WE'll see. I dunno. How I thought I was losing faith in Colt & Tony the other day....I even told them both that and they dind't even answer me, then Colt comes back with asking me about playboystore.com lol But I've already lost enought faith in myself, I dind't need to lose it in my friends as well. I really honestly don't know if I will be able to manage this job once I get my room, but I need to try and not just throw in the towel or chicken out because of 1 or 2 psycho boys. If she'd just switch the age groups of the rooms and make a 1yr old room I'd be fine cuz that's my age group! lmao I've done well with doing preschool lesson plans and everyhting, but I just don't know if I can manage to do everything I want, and do it well without losing it...but we'll see. Hell, with the 2 psycho toddlers we just got, Carla has been tlaking about quitting when her 7thyr anniversary comes up in a week or 2...she's about to lose her mind with these kids and she's like, "This might be your room" I'm like..."I don't want this room anymore" lol Cuz seriously I don't lol But, who knows...we'll see what happens. But I have put myself in a better mood today, so it's going well, for the most part lol
T.T.F.N. :-*