Ah Livejournal, I have forgotten about thee.....
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The time of stress overload is upon me and I am not handling it as well as I once have. With one week left of my JR year of college, my birthday in exactly a week, and a study abroad trip to London less then 40 days away, I should be excited and carefree. Inside I am sick with worry, over worked, stressed, freaking out beyond belief and drinking more then any one person should.
I will never understand why teachers feel like the best time to give massive projects is within the last month of the semester. Macro economics is hands down the most boring class of all time, but made slightly bearable by a teacher who doesn't believe in taking notes. Class had been a breeze lead only by in class discussions and the occasional homework assignment that would lead to more in class discussions. Suddenly, about a week before Thanksgiving break, he announces this huge group project, worth 60% of our grade. Ummm Excuse me what??! Of course, I get grouped with a lazy bunch of slackers who haven't done a things towards our project and it's due Tuesday. What little I have done quite frankly looks like crap, but I don't know anything about the budget deficit. They are suppose to come in at 12:15 today but I am not holding my breath.
I also have a HUGE project die in sports entertainment. Lets face it. I am never going to end up in a sports management job. The closest I will ever come to professional sports is a fan at the game..... Maybe, just maybe I will be lucky enough to date and or marry a players of some team, but I am not honestly holding my breath on it. Even if I was interested in professional sports, all this teacher does is talk about the Olympics or golf. we haven't learned a single thing that would ever aide me in a goal to work in the sports field. I have been a wicked slacker in that class though, missing 2 projects that I know of and maybe more. I am def going to be busting them out this weekend.
I am nervous, but overly excited about studying in London this Spring. Total chance of a lifetime. I am just really nervous about money. SU is dumb and they don't really help with anything so I wasn't able to get the visa i needed to work or have an internship over there. It majorly sucks because I was really looking forward to doing an internship while I was there. Oh well, but dad still doesn't have a job, and with the value of a dollars sucking beyond belief, I have almost no money to go over and spend. This includes for food and normal stuff like shampoo and face wash, kind the stuff you need to survive on a day to day basis.
(Oh look it's 12:17.... so much for getting together at 12:15 guys.........)
I just want everything to stop, and yes I know I am asking to much with that. I didn't realize it was too much to have the guy I like to like me more then just when he is drunk, or to have friends that actually say what they mean and not be stupid and backstabbing, and to be able to make enough money to live by. I don't know what I want in the future anymore. I have a really hard time seeing just beyond right here and right now. Normally I see that as a good thing, but i currently feel like I am drowning and can't see anything going right any time soon.
I know I shouldn't be so negative, maybe that will be something I work on in 2011. Right now is just feels impossible. I have about an hour left of work so I think I am going to dive back into my book, "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" I put off reading this book for so long, but it is actually as good as all the reviews have made it out to be. Taking a train home tonight because I think I need to work, but at very least I need to work tomorrow. Two paychecks and I am still drowning in debt. Help?
The time of stress overload is upon me and I am not handling it as well as I once have. With one week left of my JR year of college, my birthday in exactly a week, and a study abroad trip to London less then 40 days away, I should be excited and carefree. Inside I am sick with worry, over worked, stressed, freaking out beyond belief and drinking more then any one person should.
I will never understand why teachers feel like the best time to give massive projects is within the last month of the semester. Macro economics is hands down the most boring class of all time, but made slightly bearable by a teacher who doesn't believe in taking notes. Class had been a breeze lead only by in class discussions and the occasional homework assignment that would lead to more in class discussions. Suddenly, about a week before Thanksgiving break, he announces this huge group project, worth 60% of our grade. Ummm Excuse me what??! Of course, I get grouped with a lazy bunch of slackers who haven't done a things towards our project and it's due Tuesday. What little I have done quite frankly looks like crap, but I don't know anything about the budget deficit. They are suppose to come in at 12:15 today but I am not holding my breath.
I also have a HUGE project die in sports entertainment. Lets face it. I am never going to end up in a sports management job. The closest I will ever come to professional sports is a fan at the game..... Maybe, just maybe I will be lucky enough to date and or marry a players of some team, but I am not honestly holding my breath on it. Even if I was interested in professional sports, all this teacher does is talk about the Olympics or golf. we haven't learned a single thing that would ever aide me in a goal to work in the sports field. I have been a wicked slacker in that class though, missing 2 projects that I know of and maybe more. I am def going to be busting them out this weekend.
I am nervous, but overly excited about studying in London this Spring. Total chance of a lifetime. I am just really nervous about money. SU is dumb and they don't really help with anything so I wasn't able to get the visa i needed to work or have an internship over there. It majorly sucks because I was really looking forward to doing an internship while I was there. Oh well, but dad still doesn't have a job, and with the value of a dollars sucking beyond belief, I have almost no money to go over and spend. This includes for food and normal stuff like shampoo and face wash, kind the stuff you need to survive on a day to day basis.
(Oh look it's 12:17.... so much for getting together at 12:15 guys.........)
I just want everything to stop, and yes I know I am asking to much with that. I didn't realize it was too much to have the guy I like to like me more then just when he is drunk, or to have friends that actually say what they mean and not be stupid and backstabbing, and to be able to make enough money to live by. I don't know what I want in the future anymore. I have a really hard time seeing just beyond right here and right now. Normally I see that as a good thing, but i currently feel like I am drowning and can't see anything going right any time soon.
I know I shouldn't be so negative, maybe that will be something I work on in 2011. Right now is just feels impossible. I have about an hour left of work so I think I am going to dive back into my book, "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" I put off reading this book for so long, but it is actually as good as all the reviews have made it out to be. Taking a train home tonight because I think I need to work, but at very least I need to work tomorrow. Two paychecks and I am still drowning in debt. Help?