This was a wonderful and thoughtful and good response, and I'm very grateful. Things: those strategies are absolutely dead on, unfortunately they're things I'm already trying to use (thus for instance why I'm writing two page concert reports instead of a 2100 word paper). But, um, I don't know how to explain this, but... it felt so very, very good to see this, and to see it expressed like that (I am stealing "spinning so fast you're standing still" FOREVER)...
that somehow I just went and finished the other concert report. After having at first refreshed obsessively, then going and lying down and trying to lie perfectly still and make everything stop, I come and I find this, and I go to respond but I get distracted by this sudden feeling that maybe right now I could just go do it and I wrote the thing and sent them both off. I'm both so happy I could cry and incredibly frustrated because I don't understand why these words from someone else can accomplish what no amount of attempted willpower can seem to do. Anyway I'm gonna go see how far I can get on this sudden thinning of the fog.
But, um, I don't know how to explain this, but... it felt so very, very good to see this, and to see it expressed like that (I am stealing "spinning so fast you're standing still" FOREVER)...
that somehow I just went and finished the other concert report. After having at first refreshed obsessively, then going and lying down and trying to lie perfectly still and make everything stop, I come and I find this, and I go to respond but I get distracted by this sudden feeling that maybe right now I could just go do it and I wrote the thing and sent them both off. I'm both so happy I could cry and incredibly frustrated because I don't understand why these words from someone else can accomplish what no amount of attempted willpower can seem to do. Anyway I'm gonna go see how far I can get on this sudden thinning of the fog.
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I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Good luck!
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