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So tomorrow Ann posts names of people who get consent to take varsity contact. She gave a speech in class today about her reasons for excluding certain people (she didn't say who they were) and during it I got a real sense that I might not get in. She was saying yeah, there are the people who I feel are just ready and prepared to commit and then there are the people who are more borderline and not quite physically there. And I immediately thought about how I'm so small and can't do handstands and stuff. But later I thought about my display of commitment, and I come to the jams almost every week (you only have to attend 5 for the semester) and I have never missed a class (there are only a few who haven't) and I always try really hard to understand things, to get things, and show a lot of enthusiasm. Also, I really have gotten many positive comments from big people about how I give a lot of weight and they trust me when they dance with me. So maybe. I guess on some levels I'd really feel fine either way, but on the really real level I really want to get in. And it will be weird if I don't.