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today. there is so much pressure to do something tonight. i just don't care. i really don't get into halloween. when i was a kid i did of course but not now... no i don't think that it's just for kids but it just seems like a hassle. and seeing my friends stress out over their costumes stresses me out watching them. i don't want it. when you are a kid your parents get to stress out over all of that.
i don't get e-mails anymore. oh well. maybe i should write more.
had a crazy dream the other night. have had similar ones in the past. they are always about this girl that i don't really know. i don't know why she enters my dreams. it's like when we see each other in real life but it goes one step further. and so real. it kind of makes me embarrassed so i don't really tell anybody about them. anybody would just think that i'm dreaming about some stupid girl (who really isn't all that stupid)that i have a crush on. but it's not like that. i don't have a crush on her. how can i? but why do these dreams come. at times when we were closer i thought i could be foreshadowing of some sort but that was only after the first dream. now i don't know what to make of it. she is the only thing that has been repetitive in my dreams. i need to feed my brain.
i don't get e-mails anymore. oh well. maybe i should write more.
had a crazy dream the other night. have had similar ones in the past. they are always about this girl that i don't really know. i don't know why she enters my dreams. it's like when we see each other in real life but it goes one step further. and so real. it kind of makes me embarrassed so i don't really tell anybody about them. anybody would just think that i'm dreaming about some stupid girl (who really isn't all that stupid)that i have a crush on. but it's not like that. i don't have a crush on her. how can i? but why do these dreams come. at times when we were closer i thought i could be foreshadowing of some sort but that was only after the first dream. now i don't know what to make of it. she is the only thing that has been repetitive in my dreams. i need to feed my brain.