Just Another Grain Of Sand.....
......in a Mountain of Trash.
That is HOW I feel right now. Having another Bout of Depression almost 2 weeks after the last one and it's not even PMS (Pre or Post)!
I guess I feel lonely especially now as I TRY to RUSH my costume for Cosfest. I'll be doing Saint Seiya Cosplay ALONE again and being FAT, UGLY and doing a non-popular title in Singapore ( Read more... )
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I know how you feel hon, while I have nothing money-wise as well (def not like you hon) I refuse to give it up, it feels like if I give up that I've given up on life, it's what makes me happy. Costuming and my friends from it have literally saved my life in the past. *hugs*
I know it's not much, but know that someone from the other side of the world, who has never met you in person, loves you, while I may not comment or post much anymore, I am here *hugs*
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Trying to cope and get back to my feet again and making a new costume the past few days had really help to lessen the pain...well, except the part about the weird "Gore" and my Sewing Machine speed that is slowing down. *_*
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I wonder this more and more often as well. When I was younger it seemed like there was much more community and caring locally, now, it is so difficult to get local people to go out and do things.
Like you, costuming and my costuming friends are one thing that help make life worth living for me.
I wish I could give you a physical hug my dear, because you are right, we all need that physical connection and reassurance. I'm so sorry you're going through this tough time. HUG!!! I'm thinking of you, and praying things change for the better very soon!!!
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And thank you for the Virtual Hug ^_^ Am trying to cope now and guess my mood have improved slightly today as I FINALLY gotten that darn Allowance (going on Basic Groceries Shopping spree yesterday and later today. Now I need to "stockpile" on some Meat, Hardy Veg and Instant Noodles to substain myself for the next 6 weeks! :P ) and as my Costume get nearer to completion.
Really hate going into these Depression as it just not medicateable IMHO and sad it happening too often now that my (Grand)Mother is not with me, and too far away to see (she's now in another country and being pass around among her kids which I know she HATED).
The more I look at it, the more I hated my Brother and Father for allowing my Grandmother's kids to take her away and REFUSING to let me speak. Most of the time, I feel they still treat me like a Kid and yet expect me to find a job and be Independent living alone in this Big House! _
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You need a break of sorts. Not from cosplaying but from the le stupid things of your brother's doing. Perhaps instead of Science Centre maybe can find other places instead though I only see more jobs in the food service line instead. Hope to see you next, next week though!
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