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Inside my mind:
My first year of university is almost over. Wow. It feels like so much longer. There were fun things and tough things, but all in all... it was alright.
The problem I'm having is that I still, REALLY like Biology. Chemistry too even. I like the way things work together and learning about how small changes affect the larger picture. Hence, I really like my program, Toxicology, because that's what it basically deals with, all the time.
Now I like the idea of it, but unfortunetly I also have to go/through a lot of really SHITASS boring CRAP in the form of theories and formulas to understand EXACTLY what is happening.
But boring isn't so bad. What IS bad is that they test you on this stuff. Constantly. I don't have time to learn I'm so busy studying. Learning by wrote isn't learning. And even at that I'm barely managing a 60 average, but that can be chalked up to the fact the university WANTS average marks in chemistry of around 50%. Yeah, for those of you who aren't thinking math right now, they WANT half the class to fail.
And that is assariffic to me, and really disillusions me on the whole university scene, no matter how much I love my program....
Which brings me to my next line of thought, which was covered by high school for many years: College. For years I was informed by high school that since I'm smart I should by in the "Academic" programs, and later on, U(niversity) courses. Never once did I consider college, never once was it considered I might go there. More then once I would have been called into Guidance if I had said I was going to college.
But I wanna be a chef. Cooking has always interested me, I love knives, and I'm fine with the idea of serving a flamed, carved carcass to fancy diners for 120 bucks a plate. All joking aside, I do really like to cook, and I think I'd have FUN being a chef, and I'd have FUN learning to be a chef... I haven't looked too much into yet, but there's a lot of colleges in Toronto that offer really outstanding Culinary programs.
But I also don't want to give up on Toxicology. I really do like it, and I'd love to get involved with some of the research in it! But I'd hate to get stuck with a boring government paperwork job that has me looking at numbers all day.
So this is my quandry folks. Or quandrie. Or however it's spelled. I'm not asking you to decide for me, cause you're not going to get to. But any comments would be helpful. I don't know which I want to do more, or which would be better for me. But I'm really stuck on this.
No rush though. I'm definately doing my next semester at Guelph, and I'll most likely be completing the full year, just so I can get more of a taste of some of the advanced bio and chem programs, and get a better taste of tox in general, plus hopefully see Alichan who's sticking by my decision either way, she's so sweet ^_^
And since posts with pics get more responses, here's a visual aid for the inside of my head right now:
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My first year of university is almost over. Wow. It feels like so much longer. There were fun things and tough things, but all in all... it was alright.
The problem I'm having is that I still, REALLY like Biology. Chemistry too even. I like the way things work together and learning about how small changes affect the larger picture. Hence, I really like my program, Toxicology, because that's what it basically deals with, all the time.
Now I like the idea of it, but unfortunetly I also have to go/through a lot of really SHITASS boring CRAP in the form of theories and formulas to understand EXACTLY what is happening.
But boring isn't so bad. What IS bad is that they test you on this stuff. Constantly. I don't have time to learn I'm so busy studying. Learning by wrote isn't learning. And even at that I'm barely managing a 60 average, but that can be chalked up to the fact the university WANTS average marks in chemistry of around 50%. Yeah, for those of you who aren't thinking math right now, they WANT half the class to fail.
And that is assariffic to me, and really disillusions me on the whole university scene, no matter how much I love my program....
Which brings me to my next line of thought, which was covered by high school for many years: College. For years I was informed by high school that since I'm smart I should by in the "Academic" programs, and later on, U(niversity) courses. Never once did I consider college, never once was it considered I might go there. More then once I would have been called into Guidance if I had said I was going to college.
But I wanna be a chef. Cooking has always interested me, I love knives, and I'm fine with the idea of serving a flamed, carved carcass to fancy diners for 120 bucks a plate. All joking aside, I do really like to cook, and I think I'd have FUN being a chef, and I'd have FUN learning to be a chef... I haven't looked too much into yet, but there's a lot of colleges in Toronto that offer really outstanding Culinary programs.
But I also don't want to give up on Toxicology. I really do like it, and I'd love to get involved with some of the research in it! But I'd hate to get stuck with a boring government paperwork job that has me looking at numbers all day.
So this is my quandry folks. Or quandrie. Or however it's spelled. I'm not asking you to decide for me, cause you're not going to get to. But any comments would be helpful. I don't know which I want to do more, or which would be better for me. But I'm really stuck on this.
No rush though. I'm definately doing my next semester at Guelph, and I'll most likely be completing the full year, just so I can get more of a taste of some of the advanced bio and chem programs, and get a better taste of tox in general, plus hopefully see Alichan who's sticking by my decision either way, she's so sweet ^_^
And since posts with pics get more responses, here's a visual aid for the inside of my head right now:
VS