musings
Had an awesomely nice connection with some new friends last night ... came away feeling like nice connections were made. Came away hoping for a chance to do it again some time. Our hostesses followed the first principal of showmanship ... "Leave them wanting more!" :)
The wonderful irony of course is that we, as human beings, aren't interconnected meaningfully at any conscious level, so that whatever is really happening is so often beyond our conscious realizations at the time. We believe one thing is happening .. when so much more may also be happening. Certainly my slavegirl and I hadn't set out to be profound, nor had we any pretensions of being awesome in any manner. I asked her about it today. She replied "Are we really that together? I may look like that on the outside but I certainly don't feel like that inside ... I don't feel together at all on the inside." It takes a long time to get comfortable with that. Maybe that's how I'm able to do it ... I'm old enough to be more comfortable with the ambiguity of having some hint of how much I don't know ... and functioning in spite of it.
Even now this post feels unintelligible. I will simply have to have faith that it makes sense to someone (hopefully including me if/when I re-read it! lol)
The wonderful irony of course is that we, as human beings, aren't interconnected meaningfully at any conscious level, so that whatever is really happening is so often beyond our conscious realizations at the time. We believe one thing is happening .. when so much more may also be happening. Certainly my slavegirl and I hadn't set out to be profound, nor had we any pretensions of being awesome in any manner. I asked her about it today. She replied "Are we really that together? I may look like that on the outside but I certainly don't feel like that inside ... I don't feel together at all on the inside." It takes a long time to get comfortable with that. Maybe that's how I'm able to do it ... I'm old enough to be more comfortable with the ambiguity of having some hint of how much I don't know ... and functioning in spite of it.
Even now this post feels unintelligible. I will simply have to have faith that it makes sense to someone (hopefully including me if/when I re-read it! lol)