I can't do this anymore.
I can't physically hold this in anymore. Im sick of being unhappy. Im sick of not being who I once was. Im sick of not being able to be strong. Everyone says that Im really strong to be able to cope with what I have, but little do they know that its tearing me up inside. Therapy is making me worse. Im crying a lot more and Im getting ill. Im not sleeping, hardly eating. Im shutting myself off from everyone. I cannot stand physical contact. Im scared. I just want it to go away. Make it go away. Im going to another set of therapists for trauma and the thought makes me sick. Im not ill. There's nothing wrong I just want to be left alone. But at the same time all I want is someone to hold me close tell me everything is going to be okay and stay with me. I have no constant. And Im breaking down more and more each day. Fucking make it stop.
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