January 20th
As has become the trend over the recent years, I didn't even realize this day was almost upon me. It only occurred to me when I was at work last night, filling out the dates on today's paperwork. Only when I wrote it out did it seem to hit me. Strange the way it happens. Also strange that my boss apparently had the foresight to schedule me off today :)
It's a snowy day. I don't care much for snow. It's fun when you're little, but I just find it a hassle more than anything now. But I like when it snows on January 20th. It's so pretty and peaceful, and that seems so appropriate for today. It feels right, and I always associate snow with this day. I even bought a remembrance teddy bear with a snowflake pattern on him. Probably because it snowed on this day twelve years ago, and it feels wrong in some ways if it doesn't snow. Like the day is incomplete.
I remember that day - now over a decade ago - so clearly. It's stayed suspended in my mind in a place where I don't think anything will ever touch it or fade it. Like a perfect little thing. An untouched snowflake perhaps. Although that day itself was a nightmare. I struggled through the day just so I could sit alone in tears all night. The snow that had fallen ruined any plans I had (made in a futile attempt to distract myself), so it was just me. Except it wasn't. She was there too. I didn't know it then, but it's since become very apparent to me. She's been with me ever since she left me. And that's not a contradiction.
There are no tears now. Only peace. Like the perfect blanket of pure white snow outside.
You don't need to know what this is about, just that today is a special day, so I ask that you do something nice for yourself today. It can be anything, better yet if it's something you love to do and haven't had a chance to do in a while - make cookies, take a long bath, take a nap, spend some extra time reading that book you love, dance in the snow and catch a snowflake on your tongue :)
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
To Where You Are ~ Josh Groban
Who can say for certain?
Maybe you're still here.
I feel you all around me, your memories so clear.
Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak.
You're still an inspiration, can it be?
That you are mine, forever love,
And you are watching over me from up above.
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star,
I wish upon tonight to see you smile.
If only for awhile to know you're there,
A breath away's not far to where you are.
Are you gently sleeping, here inside my dream?
And isn't faith believing all power can't be seen?
As my heart holds you, just one beat away,
I cherish all you gave me everyday.
'Cause you are mine, forever love,
Watching me from up above.
And I believe that angels breathe,
And that love will live on and never leave.
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star,
I wish upon tonight to see you smile.
If only for awhile to know you're there,
A breath away's not far to where you are.
I know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.
It's a snowy day. I don't care much for snow. It's fun when you're little, but I just find it a hassle more than anything now. But I like when it snows on January 20th. It's so pretty and peaceful, and that seems so appropriate for today. It feels right, and I always associate snow with this day. I even bought a remembrance teddy bear with a snowflake pattern on him. Probably because it snowed on this day twelve years ago, and it feels wrong in some ways if it doesn't snow. Like the day is incomplete.
I remember that day - now over a decade ago - so clearly. It's stayed suspended in my mind in a place where I don't think anything will ever touch it or fade it. Like a perfect little thing. An untouched snowflake perhaps. Although that day itself was a nightmare. I struggled through the day just so I could sit alone in tears all night. The snow that had fallen ruined any plans I had (made in a futile attempt to distract myself), so it was just me. Except it wasn't. She was there too. I didn't know it then, but it's since become very apparent to me. She's been with me ever since she left me. And that's not a contradiction.
There are no tears now. Only peace. Like the perfect blanket of pure white snow outside.
You don't need to know what this is about, just that today is a special day, so I ask that you do something nice for yourself today. It can be anything, better yet if it's something you love to do and haven't had a chance to do in a while - make cookies, take a long bath, take a nap, spend some extra time reading that book you love, dance in the snow and catch a snowflake on your tongue :)
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
To Where You Are ~ Josh Groban
Who can say for certain?
Maybe you're still here.
I feel you all around me, your memories so clear.
Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak.
You're still an inspiration, can it be?
That you are mine, forever love,
And you are watching over me from up above.
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star,
I wish upon tonight to see you smile.
If only for awhile to know you're there,
A breath away's not far to where you are.
Are you gently sleeping, here inside my dream?
And isn't faith believing all power can't be seen?
As my heart holds you, just one beat away,
I cherish all you gave me everyday.
'Cause you are mine, forever love,
Watching me from up above.
And I believe that angels breathe,
And that love will live on and never leave.
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star,
I wish upon tonight to see you smile.
If only for awhile to know you're there,
A breath away's not far to where you are.
I know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.