death eater visit

[sirius_thoughts]

well my fellow gryffindors i had a visit from a death eater to night at work. it was about half an hour until closing and the ex comes in. asking me why i don't return phone calls or emails for that matter. anyway i give him my answer. i say i am fine, had a good trip and now i am back. but that i really have no clue way he would care so much. he tells me he does care and how he felt bad about the way things were left and blah blah blah. i have heard all this before!!!! anway he is really kissing my arse and i just stand there giving him my most "i can really give a care" look and then he tells me that his grandpa is really ill and that they don't think he will make it to the end of the week let alone the month. this gets me, and i change my stance. this man was nice to me and always showed me love and respect when i would visit (something the death eater did not inherit) so of course i feel bad that he is dying. anyway then he tells me he just wants things to be the way they were before it got complicated (who wouldn't). i tell him i don't think it could be possible because he has hurt me so much blah blah blah. anyway he looks hurt i can tell he wants no needs a friend right now but i am sick and tired of being used like this. i am the one to wipe away the tears and listen to all the hurt and pain but when i need it where does everyone go. of course i am not speaking of you mione but you know who i am speaking of. you know i am always there for my friends that i don't mind the venting and the crying. i love being able to be there for the people i love when they need me. but i just can't take being used as a therapist and then forgotten when i need to talk. i know some people can't handle this sort of breakdowns but dammit don't think i can be okay with being used either. anywho back to the deatheater. i know he needs a friend right now and hell i was the best he had but he threw that all away. i told him if he wanted a friendship it wasn't not going to happen. we have been down that road before. but he could try if he wanted i was not going to make an effort. he would have to come and see me (i said this because a it takes to much time and b) he would never willing give up his time to just talk) i would not return his calls i will not email him for these things are all to easy to do. i doubt much will come of this.like all his other visits he will forget and i will go on like i always have. he will look for me when he needs me and we will have the same conversation over and over again. anywho thats all for now take care and God Bless.
-ginny-
p.s
don't me mad because i talk to him the only reason i did talk to him was because of that whole grandpa thing