Who: Luca Macken (
wishgrant ) and Alois Trancy (
masterbaiting ).
When: Tuesday evening, round 4-ish?
Where: Shota Phancyhive Manor!
Summary: Following
this thread,
this quick log and
this late night call, Luca makes the choice to avoid his big brother. Big brother notices. It's time for them to talk.
Warnings: Possible foul language courtesy of Alois? Epic amounts of
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Luca's just about the only one who can make him sound a little more like Jim.
...He's good at acting like things haven't happened, and so it's only low-level distress at not having seen his brother very much throughout the day. Lack of Luca makes him nervous, in ways different now from how they had been when he was a child. His fingertips rub against the bedspread and he's anxious. (Jim didn't used to be so anxious as Alois sometimes is.)
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"With Quackers."
As if on cue, the duck pops out from under the bed, and he scoops her up in his arms. Out of habit, one hand releases Quackers, moving to stop his brother's anxious gesture. "We explored the other rooms today." He shifts nervously on the floor, before moving up to sit on the bed, brown eyes still not meeting blue. "An' we took a nap in the guest room."
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With a squeezing of fingers, he swings into Jim mode. "Go on, tell me what's wrong. I know something is, come here." He's already scooting closer. It's instinct to tilt Luca's chin up and examine his face - just in case.
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"You weren't there when I woke up." He sniffs a little. "You said everything was okay and you weren't mad or nothin' but you left and you weren't there when I woke up. I didn't meant to scare you or make you angry or anythin'. S-so don't hate me. I don't want you to hate me." Not crying. but. Wibbling.
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I fucked up.
-He's not a bad big brother. He has to tell himself this about fifty times a day, it feels like. He's not a bad big brother. It was just- difficult, sometimes.
(He feels like a bad big brother.)
"I'm not mad at you." It's firm. Not the angry firm, but the 'everything I say is right and don't you forget that' firm. "Never have been. Never will be. I'm not mad at you, Luca, and anyone who hates you is a dumb shit. You didn't do anything wrong."
He's always so adamant about that. No matter what, Luca is probably the most innocent thing that will ever exist ( ... )
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"You've been actin' odd since I came here. An' then Ciel and Shiroe left 'cause of me, an' you started acting odd more after that. An' Jack said you were upset an' he understands why, but I thought you'd be happy. I didn't think you'd be upset, an' I didn't want to leave you by yourself. I'm sorry."
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And he laughs, nothing like Jim and everything like a pleasant earl. -And then he's smart enough to realize that. He has to take another breath in order to get this out properly.
"It was a long time since I saw you, Luca." Alois is brushing hair away from tiny ears, tracing bitty features. "Those two, they didn't do any leaving because of you. It's more me they wanted to avoid. I'm a pain in the arse, I am, you know that? But you're all right, you're all right. They all know how good you are."
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"Brother, what happened to you after your wish was granted?"
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Maybe he'll just wordvomit and hope for the best. That usually gets him places, right?
"I guess for a while I didn't do much." This is the truth. He can't remember very much of how it was from ages eight to eleven. He turned nine - when? He probably sat in a ditch for it. Same for ten. Same for eleven and then twelve was with Trancy. So- "I didn't really do much. I just..." To keep from saying something stupid, he strokes Luca's cheek again.
A lot had happened. He doesn't say this. Instead, it's, "I was all by myself, I guess."
...Unless there were fucking demons shadowing him or something. There's the urge to ask about Hannah, about the lady with the long hair, about That Thing. He tries to crush it.
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And so he cries, little sobs and hiccups. "I'm sorry!" His voice comes out choked, arms and sleeves rubbing at his eyes to halt the flow of them, to no avail. He feels like he's crying a lot lately. ( --but then so is Brother, so isn't it only fair...?-- ) "I'm sorry for leaving you by yourself. I-I thought--She promised me. It was going to be okay, because she promised, and we'd always be together and everything would be okay, and you'd be happy, a-an'-- She promised. I'm sorry! I wanted us to be happy together."
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And he softens further, and he melts because Luca has always been warm enough to melt him; he cradles and he tries very, very hard not to break glasses and mirrors and bones.
"You don't have to be sorry to me. You don't. You don't have to be sorry to anyone." (It's the world who should be apologizing. It should get down on its knees and beg for Luca to bless it ( ... )
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The questions surpises him, and for a moment his face goes blank. Because Luca may have been young, but he certainly wasn't stupid. He'd suspected Alois was trying to avoid that detail, avoid talking of the lady no matter how much Luca mentioned her.
And then, he smiles, even with his eyes still teary, and his breath still coming out in little hiccups. "She was pretty. An' her hair was really long, and it moved a lot when she walked. I thought only old people had white hair, but hers was white too and it was really pretty. An' her eyes were red like everyone say demons have. B-but she didn't have horns or anything. Everyone says demons are supposed to be scary, but she wasn't." He keeps Alois's hands in his own as he speaks, tiny fingers holding on like he might up and leave at any moment.
( --Aren't you afirad of demons? No, of death?-- )
And he had been, at first, but it was only momentary because....becauseBecause even if ( ... )
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Fucking.
Annafellows.
...Alois had not always hated Hannah. There had been a wariness at all times - she was a demon and she... stared at him - but he had not always hated her. Sometimes he liked to watch her mop. But she watched him, too, and it was unsettling, and he could not bear her eyes which held something so unfamiliar.
Looking back on it, it wasn't unfamiliar at all. He just hadn't seen it since Luca's time.
One of Alois' greatest wants right now is for Hannah to be here. He can imagine it, he can picture himself atop her, he can feel the cracking press of throat against his angry palms and he can feel the fury he'd know upon once again realizing that she is not a thing that needs to breathe. He could strangle her all day and nothing would happen ( ... )
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They were together. Hannah had gone to Brother just like she had promised him she would. It's relieves the knot that had formed in his stomach over night, and pulls some of the tension from his shoulders. He'd granted Brother's wish and been with him forever after that.
But it bothered him. 'Cos I had one too--. Brother had one. Had a--
"You had a demon?" And now his brow furrows, mouth turning down in a worried frown and voice dropping to a whisper. "Why? Brother? ..No. You can't. You're not allowed. You...don't give away your soul. Revoke the contract! Make them take it back! You can't!"
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