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Ugh, it's almost 4:30 and I'm still awake. Wide awake, even. I cannot stop thinking. I think it is in my best interest to not go back to school next semester. I'll take on roughly 6 shifts a week at work, make some more money, smooth out some debt. I've come to realize that I am completely unhappy at school. I don't like it. Well, that's not true. I like the courses purely as lecture. I don't like anything else. I'm not fit to do anything else, it doesn't feel right. I'm pretty sure academia is not for me. I mean, I'm not stupid, I'm just not intelligently inclined to do school.
So, to start, I will go to the Student Center, talk to them about options. Get some questions answered concerning what happens should I choose to resume school in the future, and student loan shit. I'm pretty sure if I'm working over 30 hours a week, I can handle bills, rent and student loan payments, with money to spare. And if not, I've got all the time in the world to get a day job.
Now, while school is important, I've just come to realize it's not something I want to do right now. In fact, ever since I started, I knew that it was just because everyone expected it. I wasn't doing it because I TRULY wanted to be there, it was more because I HAD to be. Well, you know what? I don't have to be. My major is useless (in fact, I discovered that I would need to do a whole extra semester to graduate) and if I changed majors now, it would take me far longer than I would want to be there. In fact, that other half a year is already more than I want to be there. The whole 2.5 years that I've been there is far longer than I want to be there!
So, I'm going to take the rest of this year off, figure some things out... I seriously doubt my going back any time soon, though I may decide to do some other form of school (a trade, for instance) come next year. This is definitely the right path for me. I tried, I did the whole university thing, and it's just not working.
It feels good to get that out.
So, to start, I will go to the Student Center, talk to them about options. Get some questions answered concerning what happens should I choose to resume school in the future, and student loan shit. I'm pretty sure if I'm working over 30 hours a week, I can handle bills, rent and student loan payments, with money to spare. And if not, I've got all the time in the world to get a day job.
Now, while school is important, I've just come to realize it's not something I want to do right now. In fact, ever since I started, I knew that it was just because everyone expected it. I wasn't doing it because I TRULY wanted to be there, it was more because I HAD to be. Well, you know what? I don't have to be. My major is useless (in fact, I discovered that I would need to do a whole extra semester to graduate) and if I changed majors now, it would take me far longer than I would want to be there. In fact, that other half a year is already more than I want to be there. The whole 2.5 years that I've been there is far longer than I want to be there!
So, I'm going to take the rest of this year off, figure some things out... I seriously doubt my going back any time soon, though I may decide to do some other form of school (a trade, for instance) come next year. This is definitely the right path for me. I tried, I did the whole university thing, and it's just not working.
It feels good to get that out.