i'm going to be single forever
my company's christmas party on monday, so i psyched myself up for about a week, and asked the boy i've been smitten with since this summer if he wanted to browse the open bar and point and laugh at my drunk coworkers with me.
he did.
and we had an AWESOME time and talked and laughed and drank beers and bonded with my coworkers.
and as we walked to our cars at the end of the night, i asked him what had been up with us all summer. i told him that the feeling had been there for me from day one, but that he seemed to be flip-flopping and was hard to read and i wanted to know what was up.
and i got my answer. and it was pretty much the answer i was expecting to hear.
so today, everyone at work is telling me that they really enjoyed meeting my boyfriend at the party. and i got to set them straight while trying to keep a straight face and not cry. and i think the hardest part was trying to come up with something when they asked me "why wouldn't he want to date you? you're wonderful!" though our service manager offered to rough him up a bit/elbow-drop him on my behalf.
the other week, i'd posted a poll, asking which is worse - regret or rejection.
it's rejection by a mile.
i'm tired of crying every time i think about this.
he did.
and we had an AWESOME time and talked and laughed and drank beers and bonded with my coworkers.
and as we walked to our cars at the end of the night, i asked him what had been up with us all summer. i told him that the feeling had been there for me from day one, but that he seemed to be flip-flopping and was hard to read and i wanted to know what was up.
and i got my answer. and it was pretty much the answer i was expecting to hear.
so today, everyone at work is telling me that they really enjoyed meeting my boyfriend at the party. and i got to set them straight while trying to keep a straight face and not cry. and i think the hardest part was trying to come up with something when they asked me "why wouldn't he want to date you? you're wonderful!" though our service manager offered to rough him up a bit/elbow-drop him on my behalf.
the other week, i'd posted a poll, asking which is worse - regret or rejection.
it's rejection by a mile.
i'm tired of crying every time i think about this.