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I wokeup today and took a walk. The realities of my actions are setting in and I feel very alone in this world. Sometimes I think that it is me that has the problem and other times I am convinced otherwise. But the walk cleared my head. I have to work today and that is good. I hope that they really let me work cause I need cigarette money. I found out that after I broke up with A; he proceeded to go to the club and tell Xaina that he was going back to Vegas. (the stem of all our problems.) That plave is going to fuck him up. I don't want him to go but I can't ask him to stay. Cause I don't control him anymore nor did i ever. And he just called and i can't see the keys cause I'm crying so good bye