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Yesterday, I worked and it was extremely fufilling. I made some money which is always the good thing to do. Then Adam came by to drop off some stuff of mine that he had. He wanted us to get back together and that was just not going to happen. But through of conversation I relized what went wrong. The problem was never him or anything he did (though we both made a couple mistakes). He couldn't understand why I didn't "lust" after him any longer. It dawned on me that it wasn't that I no longer "lusted" after him, it was that I "lust" after other people. And this kid wanted a wife. I can't be that for him. I am not even sure I want to be in another relationship for quite a while. But I didn't flip/flop on him. I knew that I would eventually do it again to him. I didn't think it was fair to put him through that time and again. Life is moving forward and I'm taking care of things that I have to do. I went up to the school today to see about getting the rest of my G.E.D. finished. Seems stupid to sopt at 3. I suck at Math though so I have to take classes. But at least it is in the positive direction.