When the stars go blue...
These last few months have taught me a lot. In a way, I think I've renewed myself in many different ways.
I'm learning to be more selective about the men I meet. I've made decisions that I think really complement my true personality. I've learned that I will not settle for anything less than the best and that love is really worth waiting for. Anything less than that will only serve to cause unhappiness and unnecessary drama. I've learned especially in the last 9 months that passion is an incredibly important part of a relationship. But unless accompanied with affection and love is a poor reason to build a relationship upon.
I've learned that everyone has a good heart inside somewhere even if it's buried under layers of insecurity, hurt and anger for the world around them. I refuse to be angry with my friends for making the decisions they made about our relationship because there was a reason for it and it's unfolding right in front of me. I refuse to be angry with myself for pulling away from people that are toxic to me even though it feels uncomfortable to cause a rift between myself and them and it feels inherently "wrong".
I've learned that medical school is not a good reason to make bad decisions. It's not an excuse to live life frivolously. Because at the end of the day, when I look at myself in the mirror I want to be able to look at myself with respect and dignity. I am a person of integrity and I vow to make decisions that will jive with my values from here on.
I'm an extraordinary person with the capability of accepting everyone around me, intelligence that needs to be maximized, and potential for doing great things in my life for the people and world around me. I have the determination, courage and power to accomplish anything in my life. I have a beauty that radiates from inside out and anyone who doesn't acknowledge that isn't worth having in my life.
I'm learning to be more selective about the men I meet. I've made decisions that I think really complement my true personality. I've learned that I will not settle for anything less than the best and that love is really worth waiting for. Anything less than that will only serve to cause unhappiness and unnecessary drama. I've learned especially in the last 9 months that passion is an incredibly important part of a relationship. But unless accompanied with affection and love is a poor reason to build a relationship upon.
I've learned that everyone has a good heart inside somewhere even if it's buried under layers of insecurity, hurt and anger for the world around them. I refuse to be angry with my friends for making the decisions they made about our relationship because there was a reason for it and it's unfolding right in front of me. I refuse to be angry with myself for pulling away from people that are toxic to me even though it feels uncomfortable to cause a rift between myself and them and it feels inherently "wrong".
I've learned that medical school is not a good reason to make bad decisions. It's not an excuse to live life frivolously. Because at the end of the day, when I look at myself in the mirror I want to be able to look at myself with respect and dignity. I am a person of integrity and I vow to make decisions that will jive with my values from here on.
I'm an extraordinary person with the capability of accepting everyone around me, intelligence that needs to be maximized, and potential for doing great things in my life for the people and world around me. I have the determination, courage and power to accomplish anything in my life. I have a beauty that radiates from inside out and anyone who doesn't acknowledge that isn't worth having in my life.