Homophobic! Or am I? Chapter 5
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We sat on the sofa watching movies all night. We sat next to each other and I had my arms around her. I don’t know why but I needed to be close to her. I needed to protect her. It was almost 4am when we decided to watch the last film. It was the only one left out of her collection. So far they had all been comedies or romance but this one was a horror. I hated horrors but not as much as she did judging by the way she was acting all the way through the film. We ended up next to each other lying down squeezing each other as tight as we could. At one point she snuggled her face into the crook of my neck so she wasn’t looking at the screen. I bowed my head down and whispered “I’m coming to get you” into her ear, she fell off the sofa screaming then jumped up and hit me on the arm. It was at that point that I realised we were going to be brilliant friends.
I climbed into my nice warm comfy inviting bed and snuggled myself up in the duvet. It was heaven, I was so tired I could have fell asleep right there and then. I almost did until I heard my bedroom door creak open and Sophie’s voice whispering ‘Are you still awake?’ I sat up and lifted the duvet up gesturing for her to climb in.
‘I was scared on my own. You sure this is okay? I mean, it’s only a single bed.’ She said, she’s so caring and considerate.
‘Of course I don’t mind you plonker. I was scared on my own as well’ I know it’s a lie but for some reason I just wanted her to stay. I wrapped my arms around her and drifted off to sleep with the biggest smile I’ve had since she offered me to move in.
*2 months later*
“I’m quitting the meetings.” Not that I want to I just can’t continue being a leader of a homophobic group when I’ve fallen in love with her.
‘What! Sian! Why?’
‘I’m sorry guys, I just can’t stay.’ With that I walked out and back to Soph’s.
As I walked in I saw her lounging on the sofa and went to sit next to her.
‘Move your legs then’ I laughed. ‘I’ve had a hard day.’
‘No, I’m comfortable’ She teased
‘Fine then, I’ll just have to sit on ya’ I was so close to laughing but I was holding myself together rather well.
I jumped onto her legs before she could move them and starting crying with laughter at the shock on her face.
‘What? I told you I would’ I giggled.
‘You’re flippin mental ya know. Did you know that?’
‘Erm... Let me think, yep’ I nodded like a mad man on heat.
‘So what made your day so difficult then babe, please share’ She pulled her legs from underneath me and placed them across mine.
‘I quit the club.’
‘I quit after the first session.’ She giggled.
‘You’re the only thing I haven’t given up on after a day.’ She mumbled.
‘What do you mean by that?’ I was intrigued.
‘Oh nothing, I just always give up on things easily.’
‘Anyway, what do you fancy doing today chick?’ I wanted to move away from the subject as fast as possible. No way do I want more feelings for her. I’m against gay people for God’s sake. More importantly, so is she.
‘We coulddddddd, go see a movie?’ She laughed and I nodded in agreement.
‘Go get ready then’ I slapped her leg playfully.
Just as she jumped up the doorbell rang.
‘Who is it?!?’ She shouted in annoyance.
‘Who d’ya think it is? Silly moose’ came a reply. Still didn’t answer the question though did it.
I heard Sophie huff loudly and unbolt the door and slamming it closed as a girl who could easily pass as a stripper waltzed into the living room like she owned the place. She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw me. Sophie walked into the room receiving a questioning look from the stripper and me. She just slumped herself onto the sofa next to me pulling her legs up to the side and resting her head on my shoulder. Without thinking I put my arm around her and pulled her in closer.
“What do you want Rosie?” Sophie seemed really annoyed making me wonder what had gone on between them and who this stranger was to her. By now the stripper had sat onto the single armchair across from us. Her eyes had seemed to light up in the past ten seconds as if something had clicked. God knows what though. I can’t imagine her brain is too big considering her fashion sense.
“Awwww, sorry sis, have I interrupted something? I thought you were like, really against gays or something” the stripper almost sang. I had chosen the completely wrong time to have a drink and ended up spitting a mouthful of water all over myself. Clever, I know.
“Sian!!!!” Sophie jumped up making me shiver suddenly at the loss of contact. I noticed how she hadn’t said anything in reply to her sisters comments so I did.
“Sorry but she thinks we’re gay. Just shocked me a bit that’s all. And the fact that you neglected to tell me you had a sister by the way, which I’ll talk to you about later.” I turned to Rosie.
“I am not gay okay. I’m only living here because I haven’t got enough money to get somewhere of my own. I only moved into here to get away from my mothers. Yeah, that’s right. MOTHERS! I am NOT gay and I can’t think of anything worse than being gay. I don’t even know you yet you waltz in here accusing. You obviously aren’t a very good sister if you haven’t visited in 2 months because that’s how long I’ve been here and I certainly haven’t seen you before.” Out of order I know but I couldn’t help it. She accused me of being gay!
I turned around to see Sophie with tears in her eyes threatening to fall. Shit! She’s never seen me shout before. I’m such an idiot. I walked over to her pulling her into a hug.
“I’m sorry Soph. I just flipped, it’ll never happen again I promise. Just all the memories of home came back into my mind and I couldn’t help it. I wish I could but I really couldn’t.” I kissed the top of her head and pulled back looking at her. “I’ve been happier these past 2 months than I have the 18 years beforehand right. I didn’t mean what I said about living here. I don’t want to overstay my welcome but the truth is, I haven’t even been looking for a place to stay because I don’t want to leave until you want me to.” I admitted. She giggled. “Happy?” I questioned and she nodded. I pulled away. “I’ll give you some time with your sister, I’m going upstairs to get ready alright?” I smiled. “Okay” I heard her reply before turning to walk upstairs.
“Bloody hell Soph you’ve got a nutter living here with you.” I heard her sister say exasperated as though I’d hit her or something.
“Shut it Rosie! Don’t even think about talking about her like that ever again! Why are you even here? Come to stir up shit again have you?” I heard Sophie say before I was out of earshot, she defended me. I got a warm feeling in the pit of my stomach, one I had been getting more and more regularly in the past few weeks. I was really falling for this girl but I don’t know how.
We sat on the sofa watching movies all night. We sat next to each other and I had my arms around her. I don’t know why but I needed to be close to her. I needed to protect her. It was almost 4am when we decided to watch the last film. It was the only one left out of her collection. So far they had all been comedies or romance but this one was a horror. I hated horrors but not as much as she did judging by the way she was acting all the way through the film. We ended up next to each other lying down squeezing each other as tight as we could. At one point she snuggled her face into the crook of my neck so she wasn’t looking at the screen. I bowed my head down and whispered “I’m coming to get you” into her ear, she fell off the sofa screaming then jumped up and hit me on the arm. It was at that point that I realised we were going to be brilliant friends.
I climbed into my nice warm comfy inviting bed and snuggled myself up in the duvet. It was heaven, I was so tired I could have fell asleep right there and then. I almost did until I heard my bedroom door creak open and Sophie’s voice whispering ‘Are you still awake?’ I sat up and lifted the duvet up gesturing for her to climb in.
‘I was scared on my own. You sure this is okay? I mean, it’s only a single bed.’ She said, she’s so caring and considerate.
‘Of course I don’t mind you plonker. I was scared on my own as well’ I know it’s a lie but for some reason I just wanted her to stay. I wrapped my arms around her and drifted off to sleep with the biggest smile I’ve had since she offered me to move in.
*2 months later*
“I’m quitting the meetings.” Not that I want to I just can’t continue being a leader of a homophobic group when I’ve fallen in love with her.
‘What! Sian! Why?’
‘I’m sorry guys, I just can’t stay.’ With that I walked out and back to Soph’s.
As I walked in I saw her lounging on the sofa and went to sit next to her.
‘Move your legs then’ I laughed. ‘I’ve had a hard day.’
‘No, I’m comfortable’ She teased
‘Fine then, I’ll just have to sit on ya’ I was so close to laughing but I was holding myself together rather well.
I jumped onto her legs before she could move them and starting crying with laughter at the shock on her face.
‘What? I told you I would’ I giggled.
‘You’re flippin mental ya know. Did you know that?’
‘Erm... Let me think, yep’ I nodded like a mad man on heat.
‘So what made your day so difficult then babe, please share’ She pulled her legs from underneath me and placed them across mine.
‘I quit the club.’
‘I quit after the first session.’ She giggled.
‘You’re the only thing I haven’t given up on after a day.’ She mumbled.
‘What do you mean by that?’ I was intrigued.
‘Oh nothing, I just always give up on things easily.’
‘Anyway, what do you fancy doing today chick?’ I wanted to move away from the subject as fast as possible. No way do I want more feelings for her. I’m against gay people for God’s sake. More importantly, so is she.
‘We coulddddddd, go see a movie?’ She laughed and I nodded in agreement.
‘Go get ready then’ I slapped her leg playfully.
Just as she jumped up the doorbell rang.
‘Who is it?!?’ She shouted in annoyance.
‘Who d’ya think it is? Silly moose’ came a reply. Still didn’t answer the question though did it.
I heard Sophie huff loudly and unbolt the door and slamming it closed as a girl who could easily pass as a stripper waltzed into the living room like she owned the place. She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw me. Sophie walked into the room receiving a questioning look from the stripper and me. She just slumped herself onto the sofa next to me pulling her legs up to the side and resting her head on my shoulder. Without thinking I put my arm around her and pulled her in closer.
“What do you want Rosie?” Sophie seemed really annoyed making me wonder what had gone on between them and who this stranger was to her. By now the stripper had sat onto the single armchair across from us. Her eyes had seemed to light up in the past ten seconds as if something had clicked. God knows what though. I can’t imagine her brain is too big considering her fashion sense.
“Awwww, sorry sis, have I interrupted something? I thought you were like, really against gays or something” the stripper almost sang. I had chosen the completely wrong time to have a drink and ended up spitting a mouthful of water all over myself. Clever, I know.
“Sian!!!!” Sophie jumped up making me shiver suddenly at the loss of contact. I noticed how she hadn’t said anything in reply to her sisters comments so I did.
“Sorry but she thinks we’re gay. Just shocked me a bit that’s all. And the fact that you neglected to tell me you had a sister by the way, which I’ll talk to you about later.” I turned to Rosie.
“I am not gay okay. I’m only living here because I haven’t got enough money to get somewhere of my own. I only moved into here to get away from my mothers. Yeah, that’s right. MOTHERS! I am NOT gay and I can’t think of anything worse than being gay. I don’t even know you yet you waltz in here accusing. You obviously aren’t a very good sister if you haven’t visited in 2 months because that’s how long I’ve been here and I certainly haven’t seen you before.” Out of order I know but I couldn’t help it. She accused me of being gay!
I turned around to see Sophie with tears in her eyes threatening to fall. Shit! She’s never seen me shout before. I’m such an idiot. I walked over to her pulling her into a hug.
“I’m sorry Soph. I just flipped, it’ll never happen again I promise. Just all the memories of home came back into my mind and I couldn’t help it. I wish I could but I really couldn’t.” I kissed the top of her head and pulled back looking at her. “I’ve been happier these past 2 months than I have the 18 years beforehand right. I didn’t mean what I said about living here. I don’t want to overstay my welcome but the truth is, I haven’t even been looking for a place to stay because I don’t want to leave until you want me to.” I admitted. She giggled. “Happy?” I questioned and she nodded. I pulled away. “I’ll give you some time with your sister, I’m going upstairs to get ready alright?” I smiled. “Okay” I heard her reply before turning to walk upstairs.
“Bloody hell Soph you’ve got a nutter living here with you.” I heard her sister say exasperated as though I’d hit her or something.
“Shut it Rosie! Don’t even think about talking about her like that ever again! Why are you even here? Come to stir up shit again have you?” I heard Sophie say before I was out of earshot, she defended me. I got a warm feeling in the pit of my stomach, one I had been getting more and more regularly in the past few weeks. I was really falling for this girl but I don’t know how.