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I made tilapia burritos tonight. Now for one unfamiliar with fish burritos and tacos, at first mention it sounds like it might be kind of unappetizing. Nothing could be further from the truth. In fact I might actually have to say that tilapia burritos are... yes... the bomb.
this is what I've been reduced to: excitement about food.
funny that I'm so comfortable with becoming so mundane. Not that going out to a bar every night of the week was new and exciting. In fact, for the most part, socializing with the same general group of drunks for so long is mighty unsettling. Yes I found it somewhat funny that I had a first conversation with one person on at least three different occasions. But funny in that "oh how sad that you don't ever remember" kind of way.
and I did forget. All the time. August to October are more or less a blur. If we had a conversation, I couldn't tell you. I feel like in retrospect most of last year was kind of an deluge of indulgence; like that was the only way I'd ever realize that I needed to stop. It took long enough for me to realize that, but I've never been one for subtlety.
so yes, instead I spend all the money that I was spending on alcohol on food and gym fees. I've even stricken beef and pork from my diet. I find it odd that I have to be more creative finding things to do that don't involve getting fucked up, but I welcome the challenge.
hell, I think we might be going skiing in a couple weeks. That would be insane. I've never been skiing.
this is what I've been reduced to: excitement about food.
funny that I'm so comfortable with becoming so mundane. Not that going out to a bar every night of the week was new and exciting. In fact, for the most part, socializing with the same general group of drunks for so long is mighty unsettling. Yes I found it somewhat funny that I had a first conversation with one person on at least three different occasions. But funny in that "oh how sad that you don't ever remember" kind of way.
and I did forget. All the time. August to October are more or less a blur. If we had a conversation, I couldn't tell you. I feel like in retrospect most of last year was kind of an deluge of indulgence; like that was the only way I'd ever realize that I needed to stop. It took long enough for me to realize that, but I've never been one for subtlety.
so yes, instead I spend all the money that I was spending on alcohol on food and gym fees. I've even stricken beef and pork from my diet. I find it odd that I have to be more creative finding things to do that don't involve getting fucked up, but I welcome the challenge.
hell, I think we might be going skiing in a couple weeks. That would be insane. I've never been skiing.