4 in the morning
well breden just woke up again..now i can't sleep... there is nothing to do at 4 in the morning... i need to fuckin smoke...someone will get hurt if i don't get a cigarette within the next 2 hours... i have to stay here till 6 tomorrow... i don't want to...there is nothing to do here... i hope my sister comes and gets me earlier....i'm kinda freakin out cause i can't feel anything... for the past week i have not felt a single emotion...it's kinda like i'm just here... i hate when i get like this...it just pisses me off..i'm havin one of those days wear everything feels like a movie... it must be cause i haven't had any of my meds in 2 days...i forgot them at home... i have to go find a cigarette now