bored still
Well today was... i don't no what today was... I guess the best way to describe it is Drama and blah.... Pedro just dropped me off and i'm in a bored mood... sammy just got home from her choir thing...i really have nothing to say...so i'm just gonna go on talking about nothing... I was talking to whoremaster and pedro about lowell today... it got me thinking about all the times we had together.... I wonder why people have to die so young...is there a point to let a 16 year old die... i think about the last moments of his life... i mean what went through his mind...what were his last words... sometimes i can hear him screaming for them to stop shooting him.. for them to just kill him already and let the pain stop..... he was the craziest person i ever meet...he would do the most random things... he could make me laugh fovever... i still laugh thinking about the crazy shit he did... i miss him more then anything in this world... I wish i died instead of him... he had so much to live for... i mean i no he wasn't the greatest kid...and most people thought he was just a stupid little punk... but he was so much more then that... i mean people that just meet him fell in love with him... he had a gift... he could make anyone happy...no matter what..no one could be sad in front of him...and OMG did the girls love him...he broke hearts left and right... i wish he was still here... he could have done something great for this world