#42 - Realization.
I'm not going to be on messengers anymore. I've realized tonight that no matter how much I care about any of you, when it comes right down to it... I'll push you away and hurt you.
I wish I didn't have to but I won't let myself give in to any feelings I may have. I don't try to, I just do, even before I realize that I'm doing it. Which is probably why alot of you aren't very close to me. I know why I do it, but I don't think they count as excuses this far in my life.
I'm just sorry, guys.
My own shit is effecting my relationships with my friends and it's hurting you and I can't stand that.
You can call me(ask for it), e-mail me(mind_of_lyrics@msn.com), or leave comments on my FaceBattle(StayInShadows) or Realpics(Morpheus) profile in order to talk to me, I'll still respond.
I wish I didn't have to but I won't let myself give in to any feelings I may have. I don't try to, I just do, even before I realize that I'm doing it. Which is probably why alot of you aren't very close to me. I know why I do it, but I don't think they count as excuses this far in my life.
I'm just sorry, guys.
My own shit is effecting my relationships with my friends and it's hurting you and I can't stand that.
You can call me(ask for it), e-mail me(mind_of_lyrics@msn.com), or leave comments on my FaceBattle(StayInShadows) or Realpics(Morpheus) profile in order to talk to me, I'll still respond.