(no subject)
it is so unfair that one of the smartest
people i have ever met has to hate herself.
one of the most beautiful-- the most giving.
one of the strongest (though she would hate
to know i think that, she hates that anybody
thinks that) and honest and geniune.
and it's hard to tell them why they should
love themselves because you have it all some
where in your mind but they just can't see it.
they just can't see why everyone wants to ruin
everything for them. why they are worth ruining
everything.
sometimes i feel like saying, look, i'm not in
love with you but i understand so fucking intensly
why they love you. and it's hard to watch you
hate yourself over all of this bullshit when you
have always deserved something better.
people i have ever met has to hate herself.
one of the most beautiful-- the most giving.
one of the strongest (though she would hate
to know i think that, she hates that anybody
thinks that) and honest and geniune.
and it's hard to tell them why they should
love themselves because you have it all some
where in your mind but they just can't see it.
they just can't see why everyone wants to ruin
everything for them. why they are worth ruining
everything.
sometimes i feel like saying, look, i'm not in
love with you but i understand so fucking intensly
why they love you. and it's hard to watch you
hate yourself over all of this bullshit when you
have always deserved something better.