sigh.

[sinisterwilliam]

I am enjoying myself, for once in a long time- I am enjoying being me- not just being with people or music or being by myself, but out and about- and talking with...well people of the female persuasion whom I am interested in...whatever the reason. Ironically, both night's conversations were initiated (at least more or less) at the same place- with

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"If you want someone to love you, you gotta love yourself" paraphrase.

[sinisterwilliam]

I guess you deal with it by remaining interesting to yourself- and most importantly, by doing what works and feels right.

I've kinda done a similar thing too, I'm just weird about attention and compliments and shy about meeting people or getting to know them (true enough straight, but read 'people' & 'them' as 'girls'), but yet I figure out I can talk to members of the opposite sex, make nice and maybe not even be an asshole to people I know/like and/or do know/like me.

Now if I had just had the sense not to spray cologne in my recently acquired vintage suitcase...

(don't ask).

Still not necessarily dancing every night, but have done it enough lately to say I've been dancing a lot. One might say I've been retraining my mind, refocusing my chi,and done plenty towards staying healthy- both physically and mentally.

Now, I know the actual criticism came from someone who would have no reason to like me, spare my feelings- but it was also someone I think is rather just bitter and wouldn't understand my point of view. I don't think he understood-- much like people didn't understand when I was in highschool trancing out while dancing in one of the few electronic music venue deals-- that I was not ON ANYTHING.

A couple beers are nice, but really I just dance when there is music I want to dance to while listening.