Sex on the Beaches
In the past year I think I have learned a considerable amount about myself. For the most part I like myself and I tend to think I am a good person. I learned that I will give and give until I really shouldn't give anymore. I learned that for the most part first loves end in heartbreak and you know its ok. I learned that no matter what Michael is always going to have a piece of my heart. Even if I don't want him to and even if thinking about him makes me sad I know that I can never escape him. I know that deep down I still want him to change but I highly doubt that its going to happen. I have learned that I am incredibly sexual person and I don't mind it..... I learned that as much as I wish for my sister to not be anerexic anymore its not just something thats going to go away. I learned that neglect is the worse thing you can do to a person. I learned that its ok to hurt and its ok to let people in.I also learned how flaky people can be and that when it comes right down to it I enjoy my solice. I have come to enjoy my early morning workouts and running into Nanette haha. I think that I may work too hard and not allow myself to have a good time sometimes. I learned that I am incredibly independant but as independant as I am I still long for my mom to be my best friend. I learned that I can still be girlie :) ha and hang out with the boys. I also figured out just how freaked out I am about being almost 20. I mean yes its not that old and I have been hanging out with people who were older then me since I got my first job. But its still so weird to me. I learned that i am a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuge dork and I could careless mwah. Most importantly I learned just to give people a chance. Even though they might not always being willing to give you that same chance its worth just knowing you tried.