*better than you*
title is a song by the friday night boys
so into my second week of college. its strange. still don't have a lot of friends. you know, people i could eat lunch with or something. lots of alliances i call them. people i recognize and can say hi to but not close enough to hang out frequently. there some cute guys here. no one i can get at because i don't see them enough or whatever. i do have the freedom to do what i want with whomever but i feel guilty sometimes :\. except when i dance with this one guy i really don't care. i'm having fun and who says i can't. i'm really sucking at music theory and i don't like my bible class. its really religion class but its called judaism's bible but i'm too lazy to call it anything but bible. i've been talking with steve again. he's a great friend to have. i was skyping with him the other night, with video on but neither of us talking just typing. and just seeing him made me feel better because i felt calm again knowing i had a good friend to have my back. i miss cody. not as much as i thought i would but i guess its because i'm in a whole new environment. he says he has to keep avoiding the pit and our spot because they remind him of me. he and his dad are planning on making a college trip to carleton during fall break. i hope to see him then because it would be nice to see him in person etc. only problem is then i'd have a memory of him here and it might increase those feelings of missing him. i've already had a couple depression spells in the past 2 weeks. one was 2 days ago. its hard when you see both your roommates have plenty of friends and you're still struggling to find your group. steve still has some feelings for me and i think i do too, just a little. its hard not to for the first person who called you beautiful with complete honesty. we have a really big triple its awesome. and my roommates are cool too. its been cold for the most part here but a dash of perfect fall weather. i can't think of more to say. i just wanted to get some of that off my chest.
so into my second week of college. its strange. still don't have a lot of friends. you know, people i could eat lunch with or something. lots of alliances i call them. people i recognize and can say hi to but not close enough to hang out frequently. there some cute guys here. no one i can get at because i don't see them enough or whatever. i do have the freedom to do what i want with whomever but i feel guilty sometimes :\. except when i dance with this one guy i really don't care. i'm having fun and who says i can't. i'm really sucking at music theory and i don't like my bible class. its really religion class but its called judaism's bible but i'm too lazy to call it anything but bible. i've been talking with steve again. he's a great friend to have. i was skyping with him the other night, with video on but neither of us talking just typing. and just seeing him made me feel better because i felt calm again knowing i had a good friend to have my back. i miss cody. not as much as i thought i would but i guess its because i'm in a whole new environment. he says he has to keep avoiding the pit and our spot because they remind him of me. he and his dad are planning on making a college trip to carleton during fall break. i hope to see him then because it would be nice to see him in person etc. only problem is then i'd have a memory of him here and it might increase those feelings of missing him. i've already had a couple depression spells in the past 2 weeks. one was 2 days ago. its hard when you see both your roommates have plenty of friends and you're still struggling to find your group. steve still has some feelings for me and i think i do too, just a little. its hard not to for the first person who called you beautiful with complete honesty. we have a really big triple its awesome. and my roommates are cool too. its been cold for the most part here but a dash of perfect fall weather. i can't think of more to say. i just wanted to get some of that off my chest.