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He remembered. Him and I spent time alone together yesterday. it was nice. after a while though I decided to surprise him by meeting up with a couple friends. it was a fun day. and I finally got to hang out with rick a little. he's going to court tomorrow and jail later. (for sleeping with a minor) hes gonna go to jail. sucks. he's a lot different now though. like all he EVER does is work and smoke pot and sleep with other minors and other skanks. its pretty dirty... he used to be such a good guy. oh well. he's still nice to kick it with sometimes. a WEIRD comercial just came on... a little yellow furry thing was singing stuff like "I like to kiss and I like to hug!" it was a bit scary.
I need a job. I want one at starbucks, but its hard to wait around for it, ralph's screwed me over. I put in my 2 weeks notice and then suddenly THAT week I had no more hours. like they thought I was putting my 2 weeks in for them, but I was really giving myself time to get another job. so I have missed payments now and I have no job. I feel like a bum. I got out to get a job though, I just wont settle. I dont want a job I will hate cause i'll need to hold on to it. any ideas? i was actually thinking about trying to et a job at a hotel. i heard they are good jobs. i just need one asap.
so, just to fill in a gap or two. I was doing all kinds of drugs at this tie with shane. shane and i were going out, he cheated on me many times, with me knowing, but i would always take him back. he would scream at me, avoid me, cheat on me, use me... and I let him. A year goes by, then along comes this fellow justin. I was all fucked up and hooked up with him. he was so nice though! he'd call and see how I was doing... all kinds of nice things. he'd tell me that I'm pretty... so I decided to be "seeing" both guys. without shane knowing. shane found out, so i lied. i said it was a one time thing. and that i had been to fucked up to really know what i was doing. but then i met jarin. justin's friend. he was different. so i started seeing him and shane, hiding it from them both. both of their friends knew. their friends would help me be alone with each of them. not have them both at the same place. then one day shane calls and says he wants to spend time with me, so i go pick him up. he gets in the car but doesn't kiss me... weird. he says "i hear your seeing jarin" i dont feel like lying this time "yep" then the shitty part that makes me feel bad "him and i were best friends for years, we just stopped talking when we (shane and i) started going out" shit... he says "you have a choice to make" I think a moment then say "i will stay with my prince. the one that came and saved me from the bad guy." then i drop him off at some tweaker friend of his' house.
then i go see jarin and ask him out. he says yes. about 2 months go by without a hitch. then i say something about when i had been seeing them both and find out that jarin didnt know. shit. he freaks out. we almost break up, but don't. we've been together now 5 months. he still treats me like he should. i do love him. he is my prince and he treats me like his princess.
except we fight a lot. not as much as we did. but we fight. about nothing. we are both just too stubborn to ever let the other win. like neither can ever just stop and say sorry. so it gets big. but we work on it. he tries really hard. and he does what he can to make me happy. well... thats it, I am tired!
Mandy
I need a job. I want one at starbucks, but its hard to wait around for it, ralph's screwed me over. I put in my 2 weeks notice and then suddenly THAT week I had no more hours. like they thought I was putting my 2 weeks in for them, but I was really giving myself time to get another job. so I have missed payments now and I have no job. I feel like a bum. I got out to get a job though, I just wont settle. I dont want a job I will hate cause i'll need to hold on to it. any ideas? i was actually thinking about trying to et a job at a hotel. i heard they are good jobs. i just need one asap.
so, just to fill in a gap or two. I was doing all kinds of drugs at this tie with shane. shane and i were going out, he cheated on me many times, with me knowing, but i would always take him back. he would scream at me, avoid me, cheat on me, use me... and I let him. A year goes by, then along comes this fellow justin. I was all fucked up and hooked up with him. he was so nice though! he'd call and see how I was doing... all kinds of nice things. he'd tell me that I'm pretty... so I decided to be "seeing" both guys. without shane knowing. shane found out, so i lied. i said it was a one time thing. and that i had been to fucked up to really know what i was doing. but then i met jarin. justin's friend. he was different. so i started seeing him and shane, hiding it from them both. both of their friends knew. their friends would help me be alone with each of them. not have them both at the same place. then one day shane calls and says he wants to spend time with me, so i go pick him up. he gets in the car but doesn't kiss me... weird. he says "i hear your seeing jarin" i dont feel like lying this time "yep" then the shitty part that makes me feel bad "him and i were best friends for years, we just stopped talking when we (shane and i) started going out" shit... he says "you have a choice to make" I think a moment then say "i will stay with my prince. the one that came and saved me from the bad guy." then i drop him off at some tweaker friend of his' house.
then i go see jarin and ask him out. he says yes. about 2 months go by without a hitch. then i say something about when i had been seeing them both and find out that jarin didnt know. shit. he freaks out. we almost break up, but don't. we've been together now 5 months. he still treats me like he should. i do love him. he is my prince and he treats me like his princess.
except we fight a lot. not as much as we did. but we fight. about nothing. we are both just too stubborn to ever let the other win. like neither can ever just stop and say sorry. so it gets big. but we work on it. he tries really hard. and he does what he can to make me happy. well... thats it, I am tired!
Mandy