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Feb 15, 2007 00:58

Lying against him on the couch, warm on this bitterly frigid Valentine's night, I finally found a word for what I feel when he is holding me in his arms.

Disgust.I can give myself the same talk I've been giving myself for weeks now, but I feel sick to my stomach with contempt and betrayal. Betrayal on his end for not being anything I hoped he ( Read more... )

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drachenfang February 15 2007, 06:37:40 UTC

So long as you didn't get hurt too bad (or even at all) by it you're a step ahead of the game. Plus you've added some more experience to your radar so you don't have to jump that hurdle again. :)

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viedansante February 15 2007, 10:32:03 UTC

Keep giving. Keep loving, being warm.

When I read this comment I had an immediate reaction to the previous statement.

How?

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viedansante February 16 2007, 15:04:02 UTC

Hmm. Well, I will try, anyway.

You're right of course.

You're awesome. <3 ya.

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viedansante February 15 2007, 10:30:57 UTC

I, of course, believe that you deserve the best of the best, and that he's not it if he doesn't engage in reciprocity.

Right now, I'm working out a problem with our dear old chum ghosti ... And it can be extremely frustrating to be on the give-give-give side forever and never the receive side.

When trying to explain that to people, it's hard, because we are 'supposed' to give without any thought of receiving anything back ... And, that's a wonderful way to be. But the reality is that without the principle of ghosti, there can be no relationship between individuals.

<3 ya.

singingwren February 15 2007, 13:58:41 UTC

Meghan, your comment here was very empathetic and reassuring. Thank you. I really do understand that and I do believe things'll work out alright. After all, my house is ghosti incarnate and so is our Grove... so there.

I feel like I've really learned a lot, and I mean REALLY this time, not just that I should have... and that's gratifying. But a bit sad, because they were more hard lessons and those are getting obnoxious.

At least I got a <3 from you out of it, though... hehe. <3 back at ya.

viedansante February 16 2007, 15:05:58 UTC

You can always have a <3 ya from me. Consider it implicit.

I'm glad you found my words empathetic and reassuring ... Perhaps now I can reassure myself :-)

See you in Salamanca? Or Canterbury? Or somewhere betwixt the two?