whoheee.... today.. etc...
so my fever gave on to me dfeeling really drunk.
i am dizzy and disoriented and can't reallt think straight, just like before, but now i also feel happy and sleepy and uninhibited and friendlyt.
not that ive ever actually been drunk, despite body shots and jello shots and quesionable dancing in my .. recent past. i just think this would be what's it like, minus the hangover hopefully. because i really do want to feel better, i cant believe i wasted half an entire day just trying to sleep and not even doing that well. i wasnt sick to my stomach, i wasnt even as feverish as i had been... i was just unable to function. couldnt think, head completely dazed.
ths morning was really busy, i had the BEST CHINESE lesson EVER and literally went out into the hallway and yelled "YES!" afterward in english because the chinese do not have a word for yes. isn't that fucked up, no word for yes? that's like one of my favourite words. this one poem i like goes: 'the word is: yes. the world is: yes.' yes yes YES!! ask me anything, the answer is yes. only keep in mind im prolly about to fall asleep wearing what i'm wearing right now on the floor soon. such is the hope, anyway, after i brush my teeth because they ought to be clean... i want to wake up at 7 and make up for the time i wasted. yes, that should do well.. thats still tons and tons of sleep. damn having a big midterm on thursday. damn having lots to do!
so after chinese i walked across the oval and thought about how much i love the smell of freshly cut grass. its almost up there with the sound of trains at night as something that somehow takes me home, that makes me feel irrationally good. the sound of trains is inexplicably very very important to me, do not ask why. the smell of cut grass not so much, but i like it when it turns my toes green. green! such a lovely colour, it's what summer sounds like.
accounting today was boring, it always is, but i paid attention. i staid til the bitter end. i learned a lot, relatively speaking. i got angry about the injustice of the mix-up quiz last night and my professor's uncalled for attitude, though... inside. didn't tell him, but i am NOT STUPID AND NOT LAZY and no one is to treat me like i am. okay, actually, people can if they want to, but they have to be filling to FIGHT ME LIKE MEN.
after accounting i met up with charlie and we realized schoenbaum did not have QM stuff. so, i got to ride in his TRUCK again (i love this so much, everyone go get trucks so i can ride with you, i'll let you take me ANYWHERE) and then we puzzled very hard over the case study for thursday. in the end, we were a bit stumped, so we decided to verify something with the prof later and meet wednesdya. then i had about 10 minutes to track down lunch as i headed out to biology.
biology is when i started feeling weird. it was like, i could sit there and feel myself sitting in the chair and note i was hot and a little sweaty and stare blankly forward, but there was a wall between physical sensation and the rest of my brain. kind of distant and strangely delayed. i also could not lift my eyes for long to stare at the lecture screen; they needed to be angled downward. they wanted to just look at nothing. i breathed shallowly.
i closed my eyes and tried to sleep in the hopes i would feel better. couldn't keep my eyes closed like that, either! finally the quiz came after a torturously long discussion of cancer and i think idid dissappointingly poorly. it was a rather rough quiz.
i stumbled out of there and called charlie to ask if he'd take notes so i could skip bus 331, and of course he was awesome as usual and eventually i made it back home. gods, what a long walk that can be sometimes. i hate being stared at by roof-men at the end of one. im hot and tired and i dont need your lip, gentlemen, just fix my damn roof and go to the bar.
anyway, after that i crawled into bed and alternately kicked the covers off and put them on and for some idiotic reason kept setting my alarm every half hour. i guess i knew i had so much to do, i wanted o just take a nap and let medicine kick in and ward of dizziness, but i knew i was not ready to get up.
eventually at like 630 or something i realized i was definitely not sleeping and laying down was only worsening my sinuses (which seem to be the problem, they control dizziness and such.) so i took a hot shower, forcibly cleared my mind during it, sang to help clear my head, took fresh medicine, etc, etc... and felt way better. that's when agni smiled at me, oh beautitful strange dark-eyed agni.
i had a lovely walk to psa in which i got some gatorade to restore electrolytes. psa was very pleasant, nick and misty did a good job, but towards the end i found myself dizzy and baffled and kind of headachey again. i went to hound dogs with nick and mike and brian afterward, couldn't ask for better company.. they got this pizza with this really delicious looking crust for once. none of that little bullshit crust.i found myself wanting to go, 'i would like to eat your crust,' but then i saw this fish with a bright yellow butt and he stole my heart away.
anyway, now i am here, and i just got off the phone with MALIK, finally, and Malik sang me a song and I joined it and it made me giggle so ahrd i got tears in my eyes. which is good, they are kind of dry and hot, so good to fix that up! thanks for being so patient malik, and for sticking with me even though answer the phone / call back one out of every billion times because i am NO GOOD at phone conversation (which most of you may have noticed.)
now i reaklly do need sleep, zzzzzzzzz..
i am dizzy and disoriented and can't reallt think straight, just like before, but now i also feel happy and sleepy and uninhibited and friendlyt.
not that ive ever actually been drunk, despite body shots and jello shots and quesionable dancing in my .. recent past. i just think this would be what's it like, minus the hangover hopefully. because i really do want to feel better, i cant believe i wasted half an entire day just trying to sleep and not even doing that well. i wasnt sick to my stomach, i wasnt even as feverish as i had been... i was just unable to function. couldnt think, head completely dazed.
ths morning was really busy, i had the BEST CHINESE lesson EVER and literally went out into the hallway and yelled "YES!" afterward in english because the chinese do not have a word for yes. isn't that fucked up, no word for yes? that's like one of my favourite words. this one poem i like goes: 'the word is: yes. the world is: yes.' yes yes YES!! ask me anything, the answer is yes. only keep in mind im prolly about to fall asleep wearing what i'm wearing right now on the floor soon. such is the hope, anyway, after i brush my teeth because they ought to be clean... i want to wake up at 7 and make up for the time i wasted. yes, that should do well.. thats still tons and tons of sleep. damn having a big midterm on thursday. damn having lots to do!
so after chinese i walked across the oval and thought about how much i love the smell of freshly cut grass. its almost up there with the sound of trains at night as something that somehow takes me home, that makes me feel irrationally good. the sound of trains is inexplicably very very important to me, do not ask why. the smell of cut grass not so much, but i like it when it turns my toes green. green! such a lovely colour, it's what summer sounds like.
accounting today was boring, it always is, but i paid attention. i staid til the bitter end. i learned a lot, relatively speaking. i got angry about the injustice of the mix-up quiz last night and my professor's uncalled for attitude, though... inside. didn't tell him, but i am NOT STUPID AND NOT LAZY and no one is to treat me like i am. okay, actually, people can if they want to, but they have to be filling to FIGHT ME LIKE MEN.
after accounting i met up with charlie and we realized schoenbaum did not have QM stuff. so, i got to ride in his TRUCK again (i love this so much, everyone go get trucks so i can ride with you, i'll let you take me ANYWHERE) and then we puzzled very hard over the case study for thursday. in the end, we were a bit stumped, so we decided to verify something with the prof later and meet wednesdya. then i had about 10 minutes to track down lunch as i headed out to biology.
biology is when i started feeling weird. it was like, i could sit there and feel myself sitting in the chair and note i was hot and a little sweaty and stare blankly forward, but there was a wall between physical sensation and the rest of my brain. kind of distant and strangely delayed. i also could not lift my eyes for long to stare at the lecture screen; they needed to be angled downward. they wanted to just look at nothing. i breathed shallowly.
i closed my eyes and tried to sleep in the hopes i would feel better. couldn't keep my eyes closed like that, either! finally the quiz came after a torturously long discussion of cancer and i think idid dissappointingly poorly. it was a rather rough quiz.
i stumbled out of there and called charlie to ask if he'd take notes so i could skip bus 331, and of course he was awesome as usual and eventually i made it back home. gods, what a long walk that can be sometimes. i hate being stared at by roof-men at the end of one. im hot and tired and i dont need your lip, gentlemen, just fix my damn roof and go to the bar.
anyway, after that i crawled into bed and alternately kicked the covers off and put them on and for some idiotic reason kept setting my alarm every half hour. i guess i knew i had so much to do, i wanted o just take a nap and let medicine kick in and ward of dizziness, but i knew i was not ready to get up.
eventually at like 630 or something i realized i was definitely not sleeping and laying down was only worsening my sinuses (which seem to be the problem, they control dizziness and such.) so i took a hot shower, forcibly cleared my mind during it, sang to help clear my head, took fresh medicine, etc, etc... and felt way better. that's when agni smiled at me, oh beautitful strange dark-eyed agni.
i had a lovely walk to psa in which i got some gatorade to restore electrolytes. psa was very pleasant, nick and misty did a good job, but towards the end i found myself dizzy and baffled and kind of headachey again. i went to hound dogs with nick and mike and brian afterward, couldn't ask for better company.. they got this pizza with this really delicious looking crust for once. none of that little bullshit crust.i found myself wanting to go, 'i would like to eat your crust,' but then i saw this fish with a bright yellow butt and he stole my heart away.
anyway, now i am here, and i just got off the phone with MALIK, finally, and Malik sang me a song and I joined it and it made me giggle so ahrd i got tears in my eyes. which is good, they are kind of dry and hot, so good to fix that up! thanks for being so patient malik, and for sticking with me even though answer the phone / call back one out of every billion times because i am NO GOOD at phone conversation (which most of you may have noticed.)
now i reaklly do need sleep, zzzzzzzzz..