\/i will not oblige you/\

[singingsilence]

i came back, and the
sun dropped from the sky.
once again.
and you lay there in contempt.
i dig into myself and create a ditch to pirch in.
slowly
slower i am inhaling blood.
i am coughing up memories that instinctly will always fall back down
you could've died, but do you care?
someone could've died, where was yr mind when you began yr operation?
i walk out into darkness to find an empty parking space, once consumed.
i drove so fast, the
music so loud my
guts were turning on the sirens screaming for it all to stop/
singing so high...
"sunrise sunsets, sunrises the sunsets" etc..etc.(who knows this<----------i know who, she won't speak to me any longer, for I am erased of memory and mind)
back into motion.
so fast, everythings just a blur
my head beats. my eyes stay openn
i am again enraptured..

oh beautiful .
you so sweet and painful
excuse my illness and chase away my demon(ness)
i am free again of every consumption.
i am filtered to see only in the dark. but you...
you
you are so dark i see only light.
i see slowly...the moon pushing the sun back up.

\\\\blast me.]