The In-Betweens
I've been house sitting at my employer's for most of April, & it comes to a close this week. Because My Fellow works from home, it has given us a lot of time to message & call each other. We had a virtual movie date, because he hadn't seen the Princess Bride. I loved hearing him laugh & get excited about the famous actors he didn't realize were ( Read more... )
I grew up w/ a toxic mom, so I know the pattern all too well. She was emotionally abusive & a master at gas-lighting, & I grew up thinking something was wrong w/ me. It wasn't until my 30s that I was really able to break it all down & start undoing her crap. I still have to deal w/ her, but I won't let her or anyone get to me like that again. Especially if it involves someone I love.
I'm even more sure today that something better will work out housing-wise. I know people who sub-let & actually live in town, including a former roomie. And another who discounts for doing things like laundry & cooking. Depending on the size of her place, we may both be able to live there.
I'm rather proud of myself for holding my tongue & keeping my cool, because I still think J was looking to get a reaction out of me more than anything else. I've ignored her for about 2 months now, she must be ready to pop. And because I don't talk behind her back to him, I give her nothing there either.
Level head, forethought, & tact. I can do it.
She can dig her own hole, I don't need to help.
Anyway, it's certainly inspired me to write a lot more.
-meg
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