Searching
Why does it always seem as if we are always searching? Searching to find yourself, God, and answers to the constant flow of questions. Its constancy is somewhat comforting, yet I always feel as if I am always questioning myself. Who am I? Who is God? What is He like? Is the Bible real? Am I good enough to make it in country music? What am I supposed to do with my life? Who will I marry? What are my morals? What the hell am I doing here? What is my purpose? These are questions that I don't have the answers to. And it drives me insane. I often wonder if my thoughts will ever subside?
Lately I have been hungry for God. I don't know why. It could be VOP inspired or it could very well be the fact that I have been reading Left Behind. It could even be because I have been away from Him for too long and He is calling me back to Him. Maybe...its a little of everything. Today...I was in church listening to an amazing sermon. For the first time I was one hundred percent in tune with what the preacher was saying. So in tune that I broke out into tears many times throughout the hour that he was preaching. He was talking of the bible and how we need to believe in it. I often question the Bible. I wonder if it speaks the truth and if we can honestly believe something that had been recorded from hear say. What if Jesus is a legend that has been passed throughout time and his stories have been magnified to create an unforgettable character. So I ask...What if the Bible is not true? And the Preacher responded: "What if it is?" Think about that. If the Bible is not real...then we have read a magnificent book...we will die...and rot away in our graves. But if it is...and we have not studied our scripture...not claimed God...then the consequences would be terrible to bare. This brought me to tears...the best answer I could receive. Lately I have been seriously involved with and loving VOP. When I was at the Martin Luther King Day service a man got up to preach. His last sentence left me with a massive amount of chills running up my body. Think about this. "If the doors closed in on you right now...and everyone in the room, including yourself, was arrested for being a christian...would there be enough evidence to convict you?"
-AMAZING!
Lately I have been hungry for God. I don't know why. It could be VOP inspired or it could very well be the fact that I have been reading Left Behind. It could even be because I have been away from Him for too long and He is calling me back to Him. Maybe...its a little of everything. Today...I was in church listening to an amazing sermon. For the first time I was one hundred percent in tune with what the preacher was saying. So in tune that I broke out into tears many times throughout the hour that he was preaching. He was talking of the bible and how we need to believe in it. I often question the Bible. I wonder if it speaks the truth and if we can honestly believe something that had been recorded from hear say. What if Jesus is a legend that has been passed throughout time and his stories have been magnified to create an unforgettable character. So I ask...What if the Bible is not true? And the Preacher responded: "What if it is?" Think about that. If the Bible is not real...then we have read a magnificent book...we will die...and rot away in our graves. But if it is...and we have not studied our scripture...not claimed God...then the consequences would be terrible to bare. This brought me to tears...the best answer I could receive. Lately I have been seriously involved with and loving VOP. When I was at the Martin Luther King Day service a man got up to preach. His last sentence left me with a massive amount of chills running up my body. Think about this. "If the doors closed in on you right now...and everyone in the room, including yourself, was arrested for being a christian...would there be enough evidence to convict you?"
-AMAZING!