Feeling Inspired....again.
I don't know why...but I go through these periods of my life where I feel inspired and truly believe in myself. Then there are other times when I just don't know what to do with myself...my life. This often leads to a long dry period of depression. I stop singing...stop writing songs...surrender my talent to the betters...and let God's gift waste away. Don't worry ladies...I am feeling inspired. This can be equally as bad. I become obsessed and I love music for all its worth. I become focused. Too focused. People start to complain. I work too hard. Its all good for me though. I need this to come back. Here I am telling Evan that he needs to take the initiative with his career and I am sitting here doing exactly the opposite of what I am telling him to do. Crazy Mel.
Last night was very good for me. I sat and watched Popular Genious, a rock band that played at Isaacs. I had a great time. I was actually expecting to go back to my room and listen to some music and salvage some alone time. But...I was sucked into the music...the entertainment...the dream. I watched these boys stand on stage and just sing. They didn't care wether or not the entire audience was listening...they paid attention to those who were. They were not up onstage to get discovered (a mistake that I have often made), but rather to have fun and share their music with the audience and eachother. I got to talking to people. Alex Youn and I talked about a producer friend of his, my friend Zoe told me about her roommate who does head shots and her roommate's twin brother who wants to be a producer when he grows up. She volunteered them to help me out along my path to success. Perhaps...no...I will talk to them and start paving that road here at Maryville College. I need to work fast. Last year I went through that depression. I just let myself go. Honestly and truly. I stopped working...I went through a slump. I lost and forgot myself along the way. I let go of morals. Thank you God for keeping me through it. Seriously. But...I think that I have some amazing ideas. Go Mel...Go...go...go...go. Pray for me ladies. Pray that I lay all of the cards on the table and push this thing back into high gear.
I gots to run. I am tired and sick. I want to do some homework. Curl up with a good book...and sleep. Peace out.
Last night was very good for me. I sat and watched Popular Genious, a rock band that played at Isaacs. I had a great time. I was actually expecting to go back to my room and listen to some music and salvage some alone time. But...I was sucked into the music...the entertainment...the dream. I watched these boys stand on stage and just sing. They didn't care wether or not the entire audience was listening...they paid attention to those who were. They were not up onstage to get discovered (a mistake that I have often made), but rather to have fun and share their music with the audience and eachother. I got to talking to people. Alex Youn and I talked about a producer friend of his, my friend Zoe told me about her roommate who does head shots and her roommate's twin brother who wants to be a producer when he grows up. She volunteered them to help me out along my path to success. Perhaps...no...I will talk to them and start paving that road here at Maryville College. I need to work fast. Last year I went through that depression. I just let myself go. Honestly and truly. I stopped working...I went through a slump. I lost and forgot myself along the way. I let go of morals. Thank you God for keeping me through it. Seriously. But...I think that I have some amazing ideas. Go Mel...Go...go...go...go. Pray for me ladies. Pray that I lay all of the cards on the table and push this thing back into high gear.
I gots to run. I am tired and sick. I want to do some homework. Curl up with a good book...and sleep. Peace out.