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since i've been waiting for the past 2 hours for my mother to pick me up, i've decided to do a little update here or else i'll get anxious.
yesterday i had therapy for the first time since november. finally got insurance straightened out.
there had been some fabric i really wanted at the fabric store, my grandmother gave me 40 dollars to go shopping there.
i didn't really think i'd feel up to it, but since i've been taking 'baby steps' i said fuck it, and went.
but before i went, i went to the pet store and got some things for the cat. he has a new hot pink collar; they said he looks queer. i love it.
then i went and got my fabric. while i was getting it cut i looked over and saw elvis fabric and knew i HAD to have it. my dad told me i could come back later to get it because the girl was cutting it for someone else.
THEN i was feeling a little brave and decided i wanted to go into the shoe store. i got a pair of cute steve madden slip-on things.
i went home for a few minutes and decided i wanted to go to circuit city, so i did. 2 dvds & 2 CDs.
then afterwards i went to lord & taylor and spent over 50 bucks on 2 lipglosses and 1 eyeshadow.
after that i went back to the fabric store to get the elvis fabric.
this is my first time shopping in about a year (aside from matt making me go to the store with him twice). i'm suprised with myself. as pathetic as it may seem.
but when you've got a mental disorder, such as panic disorder, especially with agoraphobia.. and are scared to leave the house, sometimes your bedroom, these are things to be proud of.
and now i'm getting ready to go to my mom's house. i probably won't be there long, she doesn't like driving when it's dark and she's fucking taking forever to get here.
yesterday i had therapy for the first time since november. finally got insurance straightened out.
there had been some fabric i really wanted at the fabric store, my grandmother gave me 40 dollars to go shopping there.
i didn't really think i'd feel up to it, but since i've been taking 'baby steps' i said fuck it, and went.
but before i went, i went to the pet store and got some things for the cat. he has a new hot pink collar; they said he looks queer. i love it.
then i went and got my fabric. while i was getting it cut i looked over and saw elvis fabric and knew i HAD to have it. my dad told me i could come back later to get it because the girl was cutting it for someone else.
THEN i was feeling a little brave and decided i wanted to go into the shoe store. i got a pair of cute steve madden slip-on things.
i went home for a few minutes and decided i wanted to go to circuit city, so i did. 2 dvds & 2 CDs.
then afterwards i went to lord & taylor and spent over 50 bucks on 2 lipglosses and 1 eyeshadow.
after that i went back to the fabric store to get the elvis fabric.
this is my first time shopping in about a year (aside from matt making me go to the store with him twice). i'm suprised with myself. as pathetic as it may seem.
but when you've got a mental disorder, such as panic disorder, especially with agoraphobia.. and are scared to leave the house, sometimes your bedroom, these are things to be proud of.
and now i'm getting ready to go to my mom's house. i probably won't be there long, she doesn't like driving when it's dark and she's fucking taking forever to get here.