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here lately i haven't been able to fall asleep when i'm tired and ready for bed. i lay in bed for hours and then get annoyed and go find something else to do for a little longer. it's really a pain in the ass.
i think it may be because i've been worrying about dumb shit, in the back of my mind atleast. i need to stop and just let things flow where they're going to flow.
anyway, i found out today that i can start going to therapy again. should i be excited about going to therapy again? lol, who in their right mind gets excited about that? oh well. it'll be getting me out of the house. i have psychiatrist appointment on tuesday, that, i am however, not excited about. the time slot is 1:30 - 5:00. who knows how long i'll have to wait to see her. not looking forward to that, but atleast i won't have to stress over having enough pills, since my dad stole 40 of mine and i can't take as many as i'm supposed to take at the moment.
last thursday was my first time going to a grocery store since may/june. the last time i had went i had to leave because i was on the edge of a panic attack and hadn't went back just to avoid it. well, matt told me he wasn't going to come hang out with me if i didn't go to the store with him, so i sucked it up and went. there were high fives for all when i got home. nerdy.
speaking of matt, his birthday is on the first and i was trying to figure out what i can make/buy him. so i decided i think i'm going to make another blanket for him.
i was pissed that he did that, but i honestly can't think of much else. this time i'll have to get more fabric. if i get started this week i should have it done before then, i hope. my grandmom told me i should just make him a cake and give him a fruit basket, hahah. whatevs.
i wish i didn't have this goddamn panic disorder so that i could get a job. there are a million things i want right now and there aren't any good holidays coming up. i could always try to work my charm with my dad and grandmom since it usually always works. i did just get some cute jewelry for valentines day from my grandmom. i'm going to make a list. also, hall and oates is coming here soon and i really want to fucking go. i love hall and oates.
i think it may be because i've been worrying about dumb shit, in the back of my mind atleast. i need to stop and just let things flow where they're going to flow.
anyway, i found out today that i can start going to therapy again. should i be excited about going to therapy again? lol, who in their right mind gets excited about that? oh well. it'll be getting me out of the house. i have psychiatrist appointment on tuesday, that, i am however, not excited about. the time slot is 1:30 - 5:00. who knows how long i'll have to wait to see her. not looking forward to that, but atleast i won't have to stress over having enough pills, since my dad stole 40 of mine and i can't take as many as i'm supposed to take at the moment.
last thursday was my first time going to a grocery store since may/june. the last time i had went i had to leave because i was on the edge of a panic attack and hadn't went back just to avoid it. well, matt told me he wasn't going to come hang out with me if i didn't go to the store with him, so i sucked it up and went. there were high fives for all when i got home. nerdy.
speaking of matt, his birthday is on the first and i was trying to figure out what i can make/buy him. so i decided i think i'm going to make another blanket for him.
i was pissed that he did that, but i honestly can't think of much else. this time i'll have to get more fabric. if i get started this week i should have it done before then, i hope. my grandmom told me i should just make him a cake and give him a fruit basket, hahah. whatevs.
i wish i didn't have this goddamn panic disorder so that i could get a job. there are a million things i want right now and there aren't any good holidays coming up. i could always try to work my charm with my dad and grandmom since it usually always works. i did just get some cute jewelry for valentines day from my grandmom. i'm going to make a list. also, hall and oates is coming here soon and i really want to fucking go. i love hall and oates.