I'm sick of myself.
I'm going to just stop trying to be friends with people. They're all self absorbed and I find that the most unattractive trait of them all. I give them a chance and they shit on it. Would it hurt to ask 'how was your day?' or 'You look really nice!' Obviously it is for some people. I guess I don't want to hear it if it's not heart felt or sincere so I suppose it's just a indication of how people feel about others. If they don't show an interest, it doesn't exist.
and by the way, fuck all this love shit. I'm done with it. I'm done wasting tears and thoughts and time on people who don't appreciate them. That might be a pretty 'self absorbed' statement, but really it's not about me, it's about this world and what happens when people like me or them get put into it and all the destruction that we do. I'm all about chaos but there is a bigger picture that is wasted on emotions. The true meaning of life is not love nor peace. I'm not quite sure what it is, but I doubt whole heartly that it has anything to do with emotions. I could be wrong like I always am. I'm just sick of it all and sick of looking at this mess that my peers and I have created and I want it demolished day by day.
Maybe I should just become them.. Cold hearted, not caring about anyone but myself. That seems like a really big freedom from it all. Some people might already think that my heart is black and cold but they're to naive to see between the lines. They just hear what they want to hear. They don't think about what their doing, why should they? The world is out for blood.
and by the way, fuck all this love shit. I'm done with it. I'm done wasting tears and thoughts and time on people who don't appreciate them. That might be a pretty 'self absorbed' statement, but really it's not about me, it's about this world and what happens when people like me or them get put into it and all the destruction that we do. I'm all about chaos but there is a bigger picture that is wasted on emotions. The true meaning of life is not love nor peace. I'm not quite sure what it is, but I doubt whole heartly that it has anything to do with emotions. I could be wrong like I always am. I'm just sick of it all and sick of looking at this mess that my peers and I have created and I want it demolished day by day.
Maybe I should just become them.. Cold hearted, not caring about anyone but myself. That seems like a really big freedom from it all. Some people might already think that my heart is black and cold but they're to naive to see between the lines. They just hear what they want to hear. They don't think about what their doing, why should they? The world is out for blood.