t'was a long time coming
Just dumped WHN. I feel sorry for the loser. He knows why I did it and that he pretty much brought it all on himself. I hope he effectively grapples with this fact and realizes that his problems with women are all his own doing. I don’t hate him and I’d like him to learn something from the experience. I just couldn’t have sex with him anymore, I just felt no desire whatsoever. Not much, anyway.
The deja vu won’t stop. Every five minutes, or more, God, we saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and I felt like I’d fucking seen it all already. Everything I write I feel like I’ve written already. I looked up causes of deja vu on the net and it’s a symptom of a certain kind of epilepsy. I’ve actually noticed a lot of the symptoms before, as I’ve wondered in the past few months if something was up with my brain. I could be being paranoid, but something doesn’t make sense anymore. Something’s really not right. I don’t think it’s a psychic thing; at least, I really fucking hope not because I don’t know why I’m having it so much unless I’m on the brink of death or something.
Got to sleep. Play practice in the morning. I’m so tired right now. Why am I sad? I’m sure I’ll feel better in the morning. I guess it proves that I’m a decent person that I’m not jumping for joy after crushing a man.
The deja vu won’t stop. Every five minutes, or more, God, we saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and I felt like I’d fucking seen it all already. Everything I write I feel like I’ve written already. I looked up causes of deja vu on the net and it’s a symptom of a certain kind of epilepsy. I’ve actually noticed a lot of the symptoms before, as I’ve wondered in the past few months if something was up with my brain. I could be being paranoid, but something doesn’t make sense anymore. Something’s really not right. I don’t think it’s a psychic thing; at least, I really fucking hope not because I don’t know why I’m having it so much unless I’m on the brink of death or something.
Got to sleep. Play practice in the morning. I’m so tired right now. Why am I sad? I’m sure I’ll feel better in the morning. I guess it proves that I’m a decent person that I’m not jumping for joy after crushing a man.