In My Place
Okay, I did a very bad thing tonight. I knowingly did a very bad thing tonight. You see, tomorrow is my first real, full day of classes. Eight hours of classes, actually. I've been reading chapters on Mental Health all night (four, to be exact, and oh my god, I have never read so much in one night it is awesome) and have a semi-important dosage test bright and early tomorrow. Naturally, what did I do to prepare myself for such an event? I drank a freaking presumably-eight-ounces-but-is-really-more-like-four-once-you-count-ice white chocolate almond cappuccino along with two glasses of iced tea. People, I haven't had any ounce of caffeine in three months. I am wide as fucking hell awake. Like, no one has ever been more awake than I am right now. It is also one oh clock and some minutes into morning, and my alarm is set to beep to high heaven in about five hours. I knew this would happen but MaryCristen Ballay kept going on and on about how delicious the freaking aaal-mond cappuccinos were and I couldn't sit there staring at the menu and not indulge myself. Last time I listen to her advice. (That is a lie. She has great advice. Without her advice I would be lost in life. And that is an understatement.)
But it's all good! I am Bob Marley singing in a hammock sipping pina coladas relaxed. I re-installed iTunes today and charged my iPod and I now have every single song I have ever collected contained in one place and I am happy.
I had a great weekend. I went to Baton Rouge and visited some kids and ate waaaay too much cheesecake flavored ice cream and got to see KAT GOUNER for .5 seconds (don't get me wrong, I was extremely grateful for those .5 seconds, but let's make it longer next time yeeeeah? Okay.) and got to see almost *coughAMBERcough* everybody I have ever loved.
These past few months I have become a more go-with-the-flow kind of person. I have spent twenty one years obsessing over every little detail and I am just done. I'm totally serious. Life is way too short and precious to agonize over money or love or weight gain or war or whatever. I'm not saying that those things aren't important factors that contribute to the whole life experience, I just mean that we shouldn't forget to make time for the things that bring joy into this sometimes cloudy world. Things are going to work out, you know? It's going to be alright, and good lord, please don't let anyone make decisions for you or you will be absolutely miserable. I'm so tired of worrying about the future and missing the now, when I am still young and new to all of this adult business.
Viva La Vida is growing on me. I still think it'll take a few more listens, but I like it a lot better now than when I got it. I've also been listening to the Phillip Glass arrangement by the Kronos Quartet. It's a bunch of b-e-a-yoooutiful music with lots of violins and agony. It's absolutely perfect for a rainy day or studying or whatever. In recent years I have noticed that if I play music with lyrics I will sing too much and absorb too little, but classical music is perfect. It's background noise without temptation to figure out what's being said.
Story time: In high school I tried out for honor choir as an alto and somehow got ranked first in the district because the twenty or forty people ahead of me mysteriously fell ill, and we had this horrible, beautiful peice of music to learn for state try-outs called The Conversion of Saul. Guys, this song is intense. It's got Latin and yelling and foot stomping and it's really just the most fun thing ever to sing with all the parts. I went into the state rehearsal fully prepared for the fact that I was not going to make it, but just being able to rehearse with everyone in this big room over and over and over was an incredible experience. There is something very spiritual that I miss about singing. There are some moments in music where different notes just glide over each other and all of the sudden you feel like you are in the presence of something that is magic. This song was....epic-ly magic. It starts out fast and harsh and awful and then it melts into this gorgeous thing of amazing. And for try-outs they stuck all the girls and boys in the same huge room and had us sing it over and over to work on it. (I should mention that I always adored honor choir because I got to sing with guys and it is SO FUN to sing with boys, they are awesome ugh I MISS it.) Of course, in the end I was utterly consumed with stage fright and completely flubbed the audition and my throat hourt worse than even that time that I had tonsillitis, but it was such a great experience to have. Anyway, the song can be found here. The end.
Fall down on your knees, turn hatred into love! Turn darkness into light!
But it's all good! I am Bob Marley singing in a hammock sipping pina coladas relaxed. I re-installed iTunes today and charged my iPod and I now have every single song I have ever collected contained in one place and I am happy.
I had a great weekend. I went to Baton Rouge and visited some kids and ate waaaay too much cheesecake flavored ice cream and got to see KAT GOUNER for .5 seconds (don't get me wrong, I was extremely grateful for those .5 seconds, but let's make it longer next time yeeeeah? Okay.) and got to see almost *coughAMBERcough* everybody I have ever loved.
These past few months I have become a more go-with-the-flow kind of person. I have spent twenty one years obsessing over every little detail and I am just done. I'm totally serious. Life is way too short and precious to agonize over money or love or weight gain or war or whatever. I'm not saying that those things aren't important factors that contribute to the whole life experience, I just mean that we shouldn't forget to make time for the things that bring joy into this sometimes cloudy world. Things are going to work out, you know? It's going to be alright, and good lord, please don't let anyone make decisions for you or you will be absolutely miserable. I'm so tired of worrying about the future and missing the now, when I am still young and new to all of this adult business.
Viva La Vida is growing on me. I still think it'll take a few more listens, but I like it a lot better now than when I got it. I've also been listening to the Phillip Glass arrangement by the Kronos Quartet. It's a bunch of b-e-a-yoooutiful music with lots of violins and agony. It's absolutely perfect for a rainy day or studying or whatever. In recent years I have noticed that if I play music with lyrics I will sing too much and absorb too little, but classical music is perfect. It's background noise without temptation to figure out what's being said.
Story time: In high school I tried out for honor choir as an alto and somehow got ranked first in the district because the twenty or forty people ahead of me mysteriously fell ill, and we had this horrible, beautiful peice of music to learn for state try-outs called The Conversion of Saul. Guys, this song is intense. It's got Latin and yelling and foot stomping and it's really just the most fun thing ever to sing with all the parts. I went into the state rehearsal fully prepared for the fact that I was not going to make it, but just being able to rehearse with everyone in this big room over and over and over was an incredible experience. There is something very spiritual that I miss about singing. There are some moments in music where different notes just glide over each other and all of the sudden you feel like you are in the presence of something that is magic. This song was....epic-ly magic. It starts out fast and harsh and awful and then it melts into this gorgeous thing of amazing. And for try-outs they stuck all the girls and boys in the same huge room and had us sing it over and over to work on it. (I should mention that I always adored honor choir because I got to sing with guys and it is SO FUN to sing with boys, they are awesome ugh I MISS it.) Of course, in the end I was utterly consumed with stage fright and completely flubbed the audition and my throat hourt worse than even that time that I had tonsillitis, but it was such a great experience to have. Anyway, the song can be found here. The end.
Fall down on your knees, turn hatred into love! Turn darkness into light!