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Life has been a little crazy. I decided to write Chris and it went well. I have a better sense of closure with the break up. It all happened so fast and I believe there were misunderstandings. As soon as I did it, I had that huge blanket of depression rise off me. I think that maybe this whole depression thing isn't just a chemical imbalance. I think it's more of the actions that I do and the regrets that I feel. I've been feeling super ever since. I don't want to be on bad terms with anyone because I would hate for my last words to someone forever be, "I fucking hate you."
On a nicer note, I have all A's so far this semester. This college thing feels like a breeze. I'm doing well. I seem to get discouraged when I am not good at something. But instead of running, like I used to, I push myself forward until I do well. Thank god. I don't want to be someone who quits and gives up when a problem always arises. I want to become a well rounded person, even in tough times.
I am making friends finally. Kinda had to throw myself out there, but hey, life is all about taking chances. It feels nice to finally do "me."
On a nicer note, I have all A's so far this semester. This college thing feels like a breeze. I'm doing well. I seem to get discouraged when I am not good at something. But instead of running, like I used to, I push myself forward until I do well. Thank god. I don't want to be someone who quits and gives up when a problem always arises. I want to become a well rounded person, even in tough times.
I am making friends finally. Kinda had to throw myself out there, but hey, life is all about taking chances. It feels nice to finally do "me."