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So I am back to having baby fever. Yuck. I went and saw Shawna today. I haven't seen her since we graduated. But I was in Lansing and conveniently she was just 4 minutes away from where I was picking my car up. It was wonderful catching up with her. She still has the same "bitch" attitude. =) Which was nice that she hasn't changed. Her and Jj are doing really good. Her baby belly (or lack there-of) is cute. It makes me go into baby fever mode. haha But I know I am not fit enough to be a mom right now. Nor do I have the companion to help raise a kid. As much a I say that I'll end up being a single mom, I really don't want to do it alone. I was telling Devin about it and he said that he wished he could be around me when I get into baby fever mode because it would be interesting. Honestly, it's not. It's kinda painful with all the shit that I went through. Plus it seems like every guy I have dated or hooked up with all either have kids or are having kids. It's frustrating but I keep telling myself it is a blessing in disguise. Maybe this world will become a better place to actually bring children up in. I guess I'll have to wait and see.