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you know what? even my hair has stopped growing. i'm certain of it. this is why 6 more days of school is too too long, and a 10 page research paper cited two different ways is cause for imbedded expletives, and i should be applying for every scholarship i can find to make my life less stressful in the future but i'm not.
today i got interviewed and my picture is going to be in two local papers. it's cause for a minor attack of egoism except i'm too desensitized from the nonevents of the past 10 months. has it really been that long?
and is it permissible to announce to myself, for my self, that i'm vaguely proudly heartbroken at the tiny crash of expectations that has accompanied so many years of this. when, in the process of becoming, does fulfillment begin to come into sight as a possibility if not an imminent actuality?
staring at disposable screens.
today i got interviewed and my picture is going to be in two local papers. it's cause for a minor attack of egoism except i'm too desensitized from the nonevents of the past 10 months. has it really been that long?
and is it permissible to announce to myself, for my self, that i'm vaguely proudly heartbroken at the tiny crash of expectations that has accompanied so many years of this. when, in the process of becoming, does fulfillment begin to come into sight as a possibility if not an imminent actuality?
staring at disposable screens.