On nous apprend à vivre quand la vie est passée.
This was more work than I thought. XDDD Especially the 100 things part, SOINSANE fajkfalfj. You don't have to read this, haha, especially since some of you probably know half of what lies in here, but I suppose this a good skim if you're a newer friend. :)
Will be sticky-ing this as soon as I post it.
i apologize for the eyesore. this is how i normally look like when i'm at home, which is a good 60% of the time.
Name: Jennine Francheska.
Nicknames: Cheska, Jen, Franny, Cheskers, Chessie (Please stick with the first one, if you can, unless you're special in which I'll forgive you. Kind of.).
Birthday: Nov. 12, 1992.
Location: Surrey, BC, Canada since July 2006.
before that
- Winnipeg, MB, Canada (April 2004-June 2006)
- Cardona, Rizal, Philippines (November 1992-April 2004)
Family: Two "hippin' and hoppin'" parents, both 36 and both nurses. One younger sister, 11 turning on 12, and a Kim Jaejoong fangirl.
Let's try to see my personality in a nutshell:
NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors (I hope so. x)). Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable (Not outgoing kind of friendly, not offline). Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough (emotionally, I think). Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
And fandom in a nutshell:
kpop!
"Everybody yell out now
So you and my voice can spread out in this world
Even if the light turns off you are my sunshine
Even if my breath seems to stop
With you, I'll be fine
You're divine, you're my everything
You are the one that makes me sing
Nothing in the universe can change that
You're like a song on a constant playback."
(1) dong bang shin ki
(2) cheon sang ji hee the grace
(3) zhang li yin (i know she's not really kpop nowadays, but still, she's under sm xD)
(4) anyband
(5) so nyeo shi dae (my two favorite members - yoona and jessica)
(6) cho kyuhyun (meaning the groups he's in, haha - super junior, m, k.r.y. ryeowook/changmin/junsu >_>)
(7) henry lau (super junior-m)
(8) davichi
broadway!
"I'll give you stars and the moon and the open highway
And a river beneath your feet
I'll give you days full of dreams if you travel my way
And a summer you can't repeat.
I'll give you nights full of passion and days of adventure,
No strings, just warm summer rain.
And I thought, 'You know, I'd rather have champagne.'"
(1) spring awakening
(2) into the woods
(3) the last five years
(4) [title of show]
(5) rent
(6) songs for a new world
(7) wicked
(8) bklyn the musical
curtain call: a scrapbook of my own performances
more english fandoms!
"Oh, Lumic, you're a clever man... I'd call you a genius, except I'm in the room."
(1) carey mulligan
(2) doctor who
(3) supernatural
(4) emily browning
(5) gossip girl
(6) chuck
(7) gaspard ulliel
(8) veronica mars
100 things: from the significant to the trivial.
I. My name is Jennine Francheska. My nickname is Cheska, but in school I go by Jennine.
II. I currently live in Surrey, British Columbia, Canada. I've been here for a good three years now and I love it here. Before, I lived in Winnipeg, Manitoba, also in Canada. Hated it. >_>
III. I've been in Canada for almost five years now. Before that I lived in Cardona, Rizal, in the Philippines. I never thought I'd live in North America, it still feels bizarre sometimes.
IV. I have two loving parents, and one younger sister, who is 11 years old but is almost as tall as I am.
V. My parents both had quite the workload, so I was raised by my grandmother, who I love with all my heart. In ways, I wish I can be like her. She's so devoted and kindhearted and giving, it amazes me.
VI. It was my mom's vow, as I grew up, to have me not get a scar on my legs. I wasn't allowed to go out anywhere too far, to play too roughly, to set foot on a bike, and I always had to have my maid with me if I really needed to.
VII. I grew up in a kind of stereotypical Asian fashion, and I definitely grew up a Catholic schoolgirl. Constant academic pressure, church every Sunday (and Tuesday too because of school requirement) and whatnot. It's still ingrained in me, to be the best in everything. Or you know, try.
VIII. I was a very happy kid. I smiled a lot. 0_0 I jokingly say Canada made me one depressed kid, and I guess it did, but I also genuinely think that by moving and breaking out from my sheltered upbringing, I was able to find who I really am.
IX. My mom was convinced I wasn't a very smart kid, due to what I like to call "the orange incident". She was teaching me colors with these big jumbo crayola's that have the name in big letters on one side and a picture of an object that has the color. So apparently, she showed me the orange crayon, and asked me the color - I guessed right. Then she moves on to the next crayon, a red one, and when she asked, I said, well, I said it was orange too. Imagine her shock when she saw me on top of the honor roll in first grade. >_>
X. I grew up in a small town - as in, everyone knows everyone even generations back and rumors spread like wildfire. That's why when my mom found that I was apparently smart, she had to make sure I'd never, well, fall from the honor roll, or else it'd be a bit of a disgrace. And to be honest, I feel this burden to do my entire family on my dad's side proud. They keep on saying how I'll be the first Punzalan to be a doctor and it just makes me akl;jgal;jlkgjg WHY.
XI. I was spoiled, but not really? I mean, I got what I need and want, but for the latter, I had to work for it. Meaning I had to maintain my position at the top of the honor roll in order to get that cellphone and that computer and that book (I always wanted books. I got my own encyclopedias in 4th grade - I was SO HAPPY).
XII. When I was little, it pissed me off when I found out someone liked me. I'd make sure - I'd really make sure, that they don't ever like me again. I was very violent towards the guys back then. XD
XIII. I don't know how to ride a bike or how to swim. I mean, my dad won us a scooter and all, and I was addicted to it and rode it everyday and was able to ride a bike for a whole day, but then we left that scooter when we moved.
XIV. I watch Nick Jr.'s The Backyardigans and the old Disney show The Weekenders. With pride and much dedication.
XV. Singing karaoke is my favorite party pasttime. That and reading a good book (I am such a party pooper).
XVI. ...singing out of tune and out loud with my mom during quiet Saturday afternoons is my favorite family bonding activity, too.
XVII. Singing while washing the dishes > singing in the shower.
XVIII. As you can tell - I love to sing. It's my form of escape, I feel like I can express so much with singing a specific song. There are many times I wish my mom became the stereotypical stage mom and pressured me into taking lessons and joining competitions, but it's too late for that now I suppose.
XIX. I've never taken singing lessons - I'm planning to sign up for some when we finally get ourselves settled here (settled meaning we have a house x)).
XX. I speak English, Tagalog (but it's so fail-y now. SOMEONE HELP ME PRACTICE. Nahihirapan na ako ;____;), and very beginner French. But I am determined to at least get to an advanced level of French. I love the language too much.
XXI. I know all of DBSK's どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？by heart. This was because I sang along to it every single day during my summer vacation in LA, San Francisco, and Las Vegas.
XXII. PENGUINS ARE THE MOST ADORABLE ANIMALS IN THE WORLD. They're my favorite animals, and it's one of my goals to see one in Antarctica.
XXIII. Horses I love as well. I've only been horsebackriding twice but it gives such an amazing feeling. I wish I have money so I can do it more often.
XXIV. I think I actually hate amusement parks. Mainly for the fact that when you go there people are always like "Let's go to the rollercoaster/haunted house/the "fun" rides". Well, I don't like going on those. >_> IS IT SUCH A CRIME TO ONLY GO ON THE 3-D RIDES AND WANT TO SIT AND EAT MINI-DONUTS. ;__; I'm one huge scaredy cat that I also hate watching horror movies (why I watch Supernatural, I still try to figure out).
XXV. My mom worked in the top Jollibee restaurant in the Philippines (I don't think it's top now, though) as the assistant manager - they always won a gold, which meant international trips (she'd been to Hong Kong and Thailand), and having Paulo Bendiones present you the award, haha. When I was little I would brag to everyone about how she worked in Jollibee and I'd get the Happy Meals for free. :D
XXVI. Daniel Radcliffe will always and forever be my first real fandom fangirly crush.
XXVII. I still listen to the singers and bands I absolutely loved when I was little - M2M and Westlife .
XXVIII. Westlife still owns my soul to be honest. It's because I really really really love ballads. I'm all for songs that have lots of vocal prowess.
XXIX. I also lose all common sense when I'm anywhere outside my house - especially in public places. I think I really am a true nerd.
XXX. I despise it when my mom expresses her doubts that I'll go any farther than she did with life - that I'll probably end up like her, married and pregnant at an early age, constantly wondering what she could've done with her life, never living the bachelorette life. It's a main goal of mine to prove her wrong.
XXXI. So yes, I'm an accident. Mom had me when she was still in university, working towards a Bachelor's. I know that well and all, but one time a classmate of mine was telling the class how she was offended when someone asked if she was "a mistake", she said no in this way that offended me a lot. I feel guilty sometimes, knowing my parents could've had much better futures if it weren't for me, but they say they're content.
XXXII. I wish I can play an instrument. I feel plain and useless when I just sing.
XXXIII. I slouch, and it's awful. I really need to change that.
XXXIV. I love love love waking up early. I wake up on 5:45 am during schooldays (and I live, literally, right beside the school - the walk takes less than a minute), 7am during the weekends.
XXXV. I have a painful amount of pride. And I also have this thing where my default expression is this haughty "I'm-better-than-you" look. It's genetics, I swear - I don't do it on purpose! I always have my chin up, too. It's a family thing - my dad's side of the family.
XXXVI. My favorite French word is quelquefois. To me it's just so striking and beautiful, and... nostalgic. I'm so weird, gah. And Korean in French (coréen)is gorgeous, too.
XXXVII. There's something about me that makes people... not listen. When I'm in groups, I talk - nobody replies. I'm used to talking to myself a lot by now.
XXXVIII. I remember the day I watched the first HP movie, and inevitably, joined the crazy thing that is fandom - Nov. 24, 2001.
XXXIX. My relatives and parents often say comments about how I look and act and do things and probably will be exactly like my aunt (my dad's older sister). And honestly, I get so pissed off. I get it, we look similar, we have similar habits blah, but they really need to just let me be my own person. I'm not her duplicate.
XL. My mother's side of the family I don't really like. I feel so distant from them and they don't really feel like family to me.
XLI. ...as you can see, I love Roman numerals. In elementary school we learned them and were tested on them like it was one of the most important math concepts. xDD It baffled me why none of my classmates in Winnipeg knew it. =/
XLII. I get along well with my parents. They're so... carefree and spontaneous and fun but hardworking at the same time. I admire both my dad and mom as individuals a lot. They're polar opposites, but it's amusing, their dynamics. My dad acts like such a kid, mom does too, when you get past that cold exterior. I hang out and go out with them more than I do with my friends, and sometimes they even feel like they're just my friends. But I do treat them like my parents - I'm working the way I am in school for them, to make them proud and to be able to provide for them. So when they doubt that I'll care for them when they get old it really hurts me.
XLIII. Growing up, I was raised in a traditional mindset, with close-minded beliefs. Livejournal changed that so much - being in Livejournal all these years opened my horizons like whoa. It sounds cheesy but being here has shaped who I am now, too.
XLIV. I hate and have a big big fear of frogs and toads and whatever animal is related and looks like it. Do not get me near one, even if it's just a really clear stock photo. I get terrified. Why people love making icons of frogs or toads or any relative to such an animal I don't understand.
XLV. Like my dad, well, my dad in his teenage years, I don't like eating vegetables. Apparently I'd learn how to in time. Does corn count?? I love corn. And mashed potatoes.
XLVI. I don't care if it's overrated, but I adore Starbucks and its Double Chocolate Chip frap.
XLVII. I'm good at memorizing. It's a weakness of mine, actually. When I study, I memorize instead of really learning the concepts.
XLVIII. My first crush was in 1st grade. It turned out that he was gay. BUT HE WAS SO HANDSOME, GUYS. I was really disappointed. >_> I've crushed on him, for, what, four whole years?
XLIX. I was never... I was never really interested in the theater. My first play I just auditioned for the heck of it, and I ended up getting the part. That was in the Philippines. In Canada, I wasn't bothered to go audition for the musical at all - it's just that my teacher thought it was a good idea, and so I decided to try - I've got nothing to lose right? Turns out I really love the feeling of being onstage and singing my heart out.
L. I used to be so confident about myself, to the point that I even bragged sometimes. But I was a kid, and that was back then. I'm not that way anymore - now I constantly bring myself down, make sure I stay grounded so I don't get disappointed. I have no clue how I made the transition.
LI. I have to say my proudest moment has to be when I was sent by the school to sing in this inter-school competition, in my 4th grade. I hardly had any practice, I was (and still) such an amateur, and my outfit was nothing compared to the gowns that other contestants wore (I wore a pink shirt that said "I LOVE TO SHOP" four times in a row, the comfiest jeans, and an awesome pair of Skechers sneakers - they were my favorite shoes EVAH). I sang "Cry" by Mandy Moore and showed more stage presence than I thought. I'd glance at the judges' tables and they looked like they were actually liking it, which made me so happy. :D I ended up winning second place. Not gold, yeah, but how could I expect one? It was my first ever singing contest and I didn't think I'd win.
LII. My first singing gig was at church, when I was seven years old - our parish priest heard me trying to belt "My Heart Will Go On" with my mother and thought that I'd sing so well for this one particular mass. I practiced like heck, and when it was finally time, they gave me the choice of singing in front of everyone, or at the side. I chose the latter, and looking back, I can't remember why. xD
LIII. Singing - just singing, and singing onstage, makes me so nervous. I start to shake. 0_0 It's the opposite case when I sing in a musical, as a character - I feel so confident and I get this feeling like I can do anything. I guess that means I'm more comfortable being someone else. =P
LIV. Whenever I sang karaoke or sang in a family party, people would always say I sing well. I accepted those compliments and all, but I really just thought they were saying all that because I was a kid and usually you boost a kid's confidence, right? It wasn't until I was... 12 or 13 that it dawned on me that I can actually sing decently.
LV. I love playing mean people. And I love playing out angry scenes. That kind of feeling just comes to me naturally, which is weird, but yes. If there's one thing I can't do it's to cry on cue. Or play out an emotional scene and find myself crying.
LVI. When I was little, I'd often read descriptions of how Scorpios (my zodiac sign, of course ^^) are, and I'd go - "D: That doesn't fit me at all!". Now I have to say I'm a true Scorpio.
LVII. I often rush things. Especially tests, unless I think I'm good at the subject and thus double-check 1000000000000000x.
LVIII. I love hot water like you wouldn't believe. I love long, hot showers, and washing the dishes with insanely hot water. It relaxes me.
LIX. I used to have straight - unbelievably straight - hair when I was little. I can't put it up in a bun because it just would keep on tumbling down. But now, since I haven't cared for it (I thought there was no use because it wasn't even pretty - oh, my self-esteem), it's now on the tad bit wavy side.
LX. I tell people that my face is a perfect circle, which is ironic because I can never draw a decent one.
LXI. I vaguely remember there being a point in my life in which Math was my favorite subject. >_>
LXII. Harry/Luna = OTP for life. I've never loved a ship so much. They just fit.
LXIV. I always say that if I ever pursue performing beyond high school productions, it's my absolute dream to play Mimi from "Rent". Just to sing "Another Day" onstage would be so, so amazing.
LXV. I adore Astronomy - it's my favorite branch of Science, and I really like watching Astronomy documentaries the most (theoretical physics at a close second - though the math never goes through my head, but I love the concepts). When I was in third grade my only wish for a present (since I was top of the honor roll) was an Astronomy book. I got it and I was the happiest kid EVAH. It had the cool pictures and everything.
LXVI. My dream house is one in which I have my own study. That's all I really want, seriously. For Doctor Who fans, remember that study they hid from the werewolves? Haha, yes. I want a Victorian style study with a terrace that has a telescope. It'd be awesome.
LXVII. The most frustrating thing about moving from Winnipeg to Surrey was the change of education system. Seriously, provincials? What the heck. I'm thankful though, because in here it's much more challenging, which is what I need.
LXVIII. I only fangirl like some utterly insane being with my sister. Because she fangirls like an utterly insane being as well.
LXIX. Not about me, BUT - when we went to Koreatown (after a lot of insistence on my part) last summer, people kept on greeting my mom in Korean, thinking she was, well, Korean. I don't think she looks Korean at all, so I was very amused, but not for long because my mom "borrowed" $30 from me to buy a t-shirt.
LXX. First impressions of me are always the same, haha. I'm very quiet. People who know me now and that I consider good friends won't think that, but they probably don't remember that once upon a time I was that girl who sat in the corner staring moodily at everyone. xDD I can still be that girl. Only one of my friends still says that her first impression of me was "scary". And it's true. I take school so seriously, I get ticked off when people chatter away in class. Focus, people, honestly. >_>
LXXI. Geography. I love Geography, it's one of those academic things that I love, like Astronomy. As a result, atlases and International Relations stuff thrills me like no other (why hello there Model UN). I don't know why, haha, but it does. There's just something so cool about... countries interacting with each other. It's like having fandom clashes.
LXXII. I've only been to two Model UN-related things in my life, but I'm determined to run a conference in my last year of high school, and I think it's something I want to do in university. It's so fun, there's this giddy feeling with pretending you're a diplomat. And the hot guys. ;___; I swear, my first Model UN has spawned a million and one inside jokes about Luxembourg's hair (and hotness especially wearing glasses and my tendency to stalk him. HE'S GOOD-LOOKING K and it's not my fault he conveniently works in a movie theatre)and Czech Republic's very fitting polo shirt and Spain and his adorable geekyness and Russia being Russia and kickass period. It's one of those things you'll be thankful you tried out.
LXXIII. My main fandom when I was little was The Powerpuff Girls. My room was plastered with them, and everything I wore. I LOVE Buttercup, though at first I was only forced to (at first it was Blossom).
LXXIV. I'm the type who'll do her homework during free time in class so that I don't have to do anything when I get home. I'm always like that, especially in Math class. Oh, Math class. That class makes me realize how much focus I can have.
LXXV. I can't style my hair, I don't know how to apply on make-up, and half the time my mother still insists on picking my clothes. I appreciate it, because thanks to her I'm getting a liking to putting outfits togeher, but sometimes I just feel lazy and want to put on a simple tanktop-hoodie ensemble. This she does not understand.
LXXVI. When I was little, I'll make magazines for fun. And comic books. Colored, stapled together, and all.
LXXVII. I can't cook at all, and I'm honestly very, very far from being domestic. And I don't think I really want to be? I want to be more of the strong, independent type. I want to be a woman that's in a powerful position that puts her in an equal ranking with men, you know?
LXXVIII. I'm a Slytherin. Actually, well, I'm a Ravenclaw, considering my love for learning and knowledge, but the amount of ambition I have, thanks to my upbringing, is immense. And I can be insanely competitive, academic-wise.
LXXIX. When grades are posted up, I scan the list to see the highest grade, then I check mine, then go back to that highest grade and try to figure out who it is, calculate the difference, what I need to do to get a higher grade than that, all that jazz. >_>
LXXX. I am clumsy. I am not an athlete. I am not fit. I dislike sports very much. Gym was the worst class ever. I hate the BC education system for making 150 hours of physical activity a freaking requirement to graduate. Thankfully I choreograph dances with my sister most weekends.
LXXXI. Speaking of choreography, I've tried to learn the following dances and failed "Purple Line" - DBSK, "Mirotic" - DBSK. But I am making progress with "One More Time, OK?" - CSJH The Grace and especially "Nobody" - Wonder Girls. =P
LXXXII. One can never have enough chocolate.
LXXXIII. Even numbers rule my world. They're so... organized, unlike odd numbers - one's left hanging.
LXXXIV. I really don't like being in front of the camera. Well, photos-wise. I very much prefer being the photographer. Though, to be honest, I'm much better at taking pictures of food than people. =/
LXXXV. I know it might seem bizarre and sadist (?) of me, but I like feeling pressured. Just the right kind and amount of pressure, if that makes sense, in terms of academics. It motivates me and pushes me to work harder - heck, at times I feel thankful there's even something I'm working for.
LXXXVI. I've been in Canada for five whole years and sometimes my Filipino accent still slips in with certain English words. I do not understand why it happens, when I'm already losing my Tagalog vocab.
LXXXVII. I don't like clinging onto the past - I'm a very future-minded person. I'm too much of a future-minded person. I'm all about goals and to-do lists and must-do's by this dates.
LXXXVIII. Because of the above, I feel very iffy about keeping in touch with people. It's hard to explain. I just... really hate it when drifting apart happens and you have to deal with that painful awkwardness when you talk again. So sometimes, I just cut off all ties. ;__; For me, it's much easier, especially when I've gone through not-so-good-times with the person. =/ This makes me awful, I know. Real-life friendships to me, though, are hardly ever stable. This is why I treasure my FList like no other.
LXXXIX. I am painfully boring to talk to on MSN. My quietness in real-life reflects on IM, so I do apologize if you find yourself chatting to me. >_> I get encouraged to talk up more, though, with fangirling. :D
XC. I abuse the following: >_>, XD, :D, ^^, <3, ♥, \o/, and with pride. I abuse the first one the most - I actually have an equivalent expression in real-life.
XCI. The best smell in the whole entire world is the smell of roast beef, gravy, and mashed potatoes. I feel so Canadian when I eat it for dinner. xDD
XCII. When people call me, I do a little grunt, haha, instead of going "What?" coherently, I kind of say "Whut?" or "Hmph?". Which makes people think I didn't acknowledge them, when really, I did.
XCIII. I can write neatly, really, I can. But when an idea has come to mind and I just feel inspired, or I'm writing a rough draft for an assignment it's always messy. Really messy. Plus I always must use a pencil and I'm left handed, so there's always that stain on my hand and the paper, too.
XCIV. Writing on paper > typing on the computer. It just gives more of the writer vibe, if that makes sense, to me. x) I feel more of a writer when I write on paper, it feels more natural.
XCV. I am deathly scared of driving. and growing up, really I got my learner's license, which means I can go driving accompanied by an adult, but still. I don't want to. >_>
XCVI. Thanks to KPop, and like most fangirls, I find myself wanting to learn Korean. But I keep telling myself "nuuuu, you have to get to at least intermediate French you dolt you don't even know how to swear in French yet". So. I'd like to take it in uni, though, and know Hangul really well before that. My favorite Korean word? 영원히 (yeongweonhi).
XCVII. This song, and well, the whole musical (song cycle?) in general has inspired me so much. It's made me feel happy - overwhelmed with actual happiness with how inspired I felt. I think I teared up hearing the song for the first time. It just hit me, I don't even know. I love it so much. My favorite musical theatre-related thing ever. Evereverever.
XCVIII. I love knowing random facts, thanks to reading knowledge books when I was little. x) Thus, I love "Jeopardy", though I don't watch it enough. I love "Reach For The Top" more, and I just wish our school can join it already.
XCIX. I have this tendency to be careless with things I should take care of more. Half the time I don't even mean it, but I swear a scratch just pops up on my iPod or the closet got messy without me even noticing it and I don't even think I really did it? *not making sense*
C. I am one true nerd, and I love it. I really do. Sometimes, I wish I can just stay in my world of theories and facts and never go into the real world and just study about it, never venture out into it. =P I think this is the part of me that makes me such a Ravenclaw.
contact!
Email: pasta.puttanesca@gmail.com
MSN: etoile.lumineux@hotmail.com (best way to get to me)
AIM: shadow passed
Last.fm: here
Goodreads: here
Facebook: here
or by PM.
P.S. New layout! Try and see how many times you have to refresh to see your fave Dong Bang member. xD
Will be sticky-ing this as soon as I post it.
i apologize for the eyesore. this is how i normally look like when i'm at home, which is a good 60% of the time.
Name: Jennine Francheska.
Nicknames: Cheska, Jen, Franny, Cheskers, Chessie (Please stick with the first one, if you can, unless you're special in which I'll forgive you. Kind of.).
Birthday: Nov. 12, 1992.
Location: Surrey, BC, Canada since July 2006.
before that
- Winnipeg, MB, Canada (April 2004-June 2006)
- Cardona, Rizal, Philippines (November 1992-April 2004)
Family: Two "hippin' and hoppin'" parents, both 36 and both nurses. One younger sister, 11 turning on 12, and a Kim Jaejoong fangirl.
Let's try to see my personality in a nutshell:
NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors (I hope so. x)). Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable (Not outgoing kind of friendly, not offline). Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough (emotionally, I think). Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
And fandom in a nutshell:
kpop!
"Everybody yell out now
So you and my voice can spread out in this world
Even if the light turns off you are my sunshine
Even if my breath seems to stop
With you, I'll be fine
You're divine, you're my everything
You are the one that makes me sing
Nothing in the universe can change that
You're like a song on a constant playback."
(1) dong bang shin ki
(2) cheon sang ji hee the grace
(3) zhang li yin (i know she's not really kpop nowadays, but still, she's under sm xD)
(4) anyband
(5) so nyeo shi dae (my two favorite members - yoona and jessica)
(6) cho kyuhyun (meaning the groups he's in, haha - super junior, m, k.r.y. ryeowook/changmin/junsu >_>)
(7) henry lau (super junior-m)
(8) davichi
broadway!
"I'll give you stars and the moon and the open highway
And a river beneath your feet
I'll give you days full of dreams if you travel my way
And a summer you can't repeat.
I'll give you nights full of passion and days of adventure,
No strings, just warm summer rain.
And I thought, 'You know, I'd rather have champagne.'"
(1) spring awakening
(2) into the woods
(3) the last five years
(4) [title of show]
(5) rent
(6) songs for a new world
(7) wicked
(8) bklyn the musical
curtain call: a scrapbook of my own performances
more english fandoms!
"Oh, Lumic, you're a clever man... I'd call you a genius, except I'm in the room."
(1) carey mulligan
(2) doctor who
(3) supernatural
(4) emily browning
(5) gossip girl
(6) chuck
(7) gaspard ulliel
(8) veronica mars
100 things: from the significant to the trivial.
I. My name is Jennine Francheska. My nickname is Cheska, but in school I go by Jennine.
II. I currently live in Surrey, British Columbia, Canada. I've been here for a good three years now and I love it here. Before, I lived in Winnipeg, Manitoba, also in Canada. Hated it. >_>
III. I've been in Canada for almost five years now. Before that I lived in Cardona, Rizal, in the Philippines. I never thought I'd live in North America, it still feels bizarre sometimes.
IV. I have two loving parents, and one younger sister, who is 11 years old but is almost as tall as I am.
V. My parents both had quite the workload, so I was raised by my grandmother, who I love with all my heart. In ways, I wish I can be like her. She's so devoted and kindhearted and giving, it amazes me.
VI. It was my mom's vow, as I grew up, to have me not get a scar on my legs. I wasn't allowed to go out anywhere too far, to play too roughly, to set foot on a bike, and I always had to have my maid with me if I really needed to.
VII. I grew up in a kind of stereotypical Asian fashion, and I definitely grew up a Catholic schoolgirl. Constant academic pressure, church every Sunday (and Tuesday too because of school requirement) and whatnot. It's still ingrained in me, to be the best in everything. Or you know, try.
VIII. I was a very happy kid. I smiled a lot. 0_0 I jokingly say Canada made me one depressed kid, and I guess it did, but I also genuinely think that by moving and breaking out from my sheltered upbringing, I was able to find who I really am.
IX. My mom was convinced I wasn't a very smart kid, due to what I like to call "the orange incident". She was teaching me colors with these big jumbo crayola's that have the name in big letters on one side and a picture of an object that has the color. So apparently, she showed me the orange crayon, and asked me the color - I guessed right. Then she moves on to the next crayon, a red one, and when she asked, I said, well, I said it was orange too. Imagine her shock when she saw me on top of the honor roll in first grade. >_>
X. I grew up in a small town - as in, everyone knows everyone even generations back and rumors spread like wildfire. That's why when my mom found that I was apparently smart, she had to make sure I'd never, well, fall from the honor roll, or else it'd be a bit of a disgrace. And to be honest, I feel this burden to do my entire family on my dad's side proud. They keep on saying how I'll be the first Punzalan to be a doctor and it just makes me akl;jgal;jlkgjg WHY.
XI. I was spoiled, but not really? I mean, I got what I need and want, but for the latter, I had to work for it. Meaning I had to maintain my position at the top of the honor roll in order to get that cellphone and that computer and that book (I always wanted books. I got my own encyclopedias in 4th grade - I was SO HAPPY).
XII. When I was little, it pissed me off when I found out someone liked me. I'd make sure - I'd really make sure, that they don't ever like me again. I was very violent towards the guys back then. XD
XIII. I don't know how to ride a bike or how to swim. I mean, my dad won us a scooter and all, and I was addicted to it and rode it everyday and was able to ride a bike for a whole day, but then we left that scooter when we moved.
XIV. I watch Nick Jr.'s The Backyardigans and the old Disney show The Weekenders. With pride and much dedication.
XV. Singing karaoke is my favorite party pasttime. That and reading a good book (I am such a party pooper).
XVI. ...singing out of tune and out loud with my mom during quiet Saturday afternoons is my favorite family bonding activity, too.
XVII. Singing while washing the dishes > singing in the shower.
XVIII. As you can tell - I love to sing. It's my form of escape, I feel like I can express so much with singing a specific song. There are many times I wish my mom became the stereotypical stage mom and pressured me into taking lessons and joining competitions, but it's too late for that now I suppose.
XIX. I've never taken singing lessons - I'm planning to sign up for some when we finally get ourselves settled here (settled meaning we have a house x)).
XX. I speak English, Tagalog (but it's so fail-y now. SOMEONE HELP ME PRACTICE. Nahihirapan na ako ;____;), and very beginner French. But I am determined to at least get to an advanced level of French. I love the language too much.
XXI. I know all of DBSK's どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？by heart. This was because I sang along to it every single day during my summer vacation in LA, San Francisco, and Las Vegas.
XXII. PENGUINS ARE THE MOST ADORABLE ANIMALS IN THE WORLD. They're my favorite animals, and it's one of my goals to see one in Antarctica.
XXIII. Horses I love as well. I've only been horsebackriding twice but it gives such an amazing feeling. I wish I have money so I can do it more often.
XXIV. I think I actually hate amusement parks. Mainly for the fact that when you go there people are always like "Let's go to the rollercoaster/haunted house/the "fun" rides". Well, I don't like going on those. >_> IS IT SUCH A CRIME TO ONLY GO ON THE 3-D RIDES AND WANT TO SIT AND EAT MINI-DONUTS. ;__; I'm one huge scaredy cat that I also hate watching horror movies (why I watch Supernatural, I still try to figure out).
XXV. My mom worked in the top Jollibee restaurant in the Philippines (I don't think it's top now, though) as the assistant manager - they always won a gold, which meant international trips (she'd been to Hong Kong and Thailand), and having Paulo Bendiones present you the award, haha. When I was little I would brag to everyone about how she worked in Jollibee and I'd get the Happy Meals for free. :D
XXVI. Daniel Radcliffe will always and forever be my first real fandom fangirly crush.
XXVII. I still listen to the singers and bands I absolutely loved when I was little - M2M and Westlife .
XXVIII. Westlife still owns my soul to be honest. It's because I really really really love ballads. I'm all for songs that have lots of vocal prowess.
XXIX. I also lose all common sense when I'm anywhere outside my house - especially in public places. I think I really am a true nerd.
XXX. I despise it when my mom expresses her doubts that I'll go any farther than she did with life - that I'll probably end up like her, married and pregnant at an early age, constantly wondering what she could've done with her life, never living the bachelorette life. It's a main goal of mine to prove her wrong.
XXXI. So yes, I'm an accident. Mom had me when she was still in university, working towards a Bachelor's. I know that well and all, but one time a classmate of mine was telling the class how she was offended when someone asked if she was "a mistake", she said no in this way that offended me a lot. I feel guilty sometimes, knowing my parents could've had much better futures if it weren't for me, but they say they're content.
XXXII. I wish I can play an instrument. I feel plain and useless when I just sing.
XXXIII. I slouch, and it's awful. I really need to change that.
XXXIV. I love love love waking up early. I wake up on 5:45 am during schooldays (and I live, literally, right beside the school - the walk takes less than a minute), 7am during the weekends.
XXXV. I have a painful amount of pride. And I also have this thing where my default expression is this haughty "I'm-better-than-you" look. It's genetics, I swear - I don't do it on purpose! I always have my chin up, too. It's a family thing - my dad's side of the family.
XXXVI. My favorite French word is quelquefois. To me it's just so striking and beautiful, and... nostalgic. I'm so weird, gah. And Korean in French (coréen)is gorgeous, too.
XXXVII. There's something about me that makes people... not listen. When I'm in groups, I talk - nobody replies. I'm used to talking to myself a lot by now.
XXXVIII. I remember the day I watched the first HP movie, and inevitably, joined the crazy thing that is fandom - Nov. 24, 2001.
XXXIX. My relatives and parents often say comments about how I look and act and do things and probably will be exactly like my aunt (my dad's older sister). And honestly, I get so pissed off. I get it, we look similar, we have similar habits blah, but they really need to just let me be my own person. I'm not her duplicate.
XL. My mother's side of the family I don't really like. I feel so distant from them and they don't really feel like family to me.
XLI. ...as you can see, I love Roman numerals. In elementary school we learned them and were tested on them like it was one of the most important math concepts. xDD It baffled me why none of my classmates in Winnipeg knew it. =/
XLII. I get along well with my parents. They're so... carefree and spontaneous and fun but hardworking at the same time. I admire both my dad and mom as individuals a lot. They're polar opposites, but it's amusing, their dynamics. My dad acts like such a kid, mom does too, when you get past that cold exterior. I hang out and go out with them more than I do with my friends, and sometimes they even feel like they're just my friends. But I do treat them like my parents - I'm working the way I am in school for them, to make them proud and to be able to provide for them. So when they doubt that I'll care for them when they get old it really hurts me.
XLIII. Growing up, I was raised in a traditional mindset, with close-minded beliefs. Livejournal changed that so much - being in Livejournal all these years opened my horizons like whoa. It sounds cheesy but being here has shaped who I am now, too.
XLIV. I hate and have a big big fear of frogs and toads and whatever animal is related and looks like it. Do not get me near one, even if it's just a really clear stock photo. I get terrified. Why people love making icons of frogs or toads or any relative to such an animal I don't understand.
XLV. Like my dad, well, my dad in his teenage years, I don't like eating vegetables. Apparently I'd learn how to in time. Does corn count?? I love corn. And mashed potatoes.
XLVI. I don't care if it's overrated, but I adore Starbucks and its Double Chocolate Chip frap.
XLVII. I'm good at memorizing. It's a weakness of mine, actually. When I study, I memorize instead of really learning the concepts.
XLVIII. My first crush was in 1st grade. It turned out that he was gay. BUT HE WAS SO HANDSOME, GUYS. I was really disappointed. >_> I've crushed on him, for, what, four whole years?
XLIX. I was never... I was never really interested in the theater. My first play I just auditioned for the heck of it, and I ended up getting the part. That was in the Philippines. In Canada, I wasn't bothered to go audition for the musical at all - it's just that my teacher thought it was a good idea, and so I decided to try - I've got nothing to lose right? Turns out I really love the feeling of being onstage and singing my heart out.
L. I used to be so confident about myself, to the point that I even bragged sometimes. But I was a kid, and that was back then. I'm not that way anymore - now I constantly bring myself down, make sure I stay grounded so I don't get disappointed. I have no clue how I made the transition.
LI. I have to say my proudest moment has to be when I was sent by the school to sing in this inter-school competition, in my 4th grade. I hardly had any practice, I was (and still) such an amateur, and my outfit was nothing compared to the gowns that other contestants wore (I wore a pink shirt that said "I LOVE TO SHOP" four times in a row, the comfiest jeans, and an awesome pair of Skechers sneakers - they were my favorite shoes EVAH). I sang "Cry" by Mandy Moore and showed more stage presence than I thought. I'd glance at the judges' tables and they looked like they were actually liking it, which made me so happy. :D I ended up winning second place. Not gold, yeah, but how could I expect one? It was my first ever singing contest and I didn't think I'd win.
LII. My first singing gig was at church, when I was seven years old - our parish priest heard me trying to belt "My Heart Will Go On" with my mother and thought that I'd sing so well for this one particular mass. I practiced like heck, and when it was finally time, they gave me the choice of singing in front of everyone, or at the side. I chose the latter, and looking back, I can't remember why. xD
LIII. Singing - just singing, and singing onstage, makes me so nervous. I start to shake. 0_0 It's the opposite case when I sing in a musical, as a character - I feel so confident and I get this feeling like I can do anything. I guess that means I'm more comfortable being someone else. =P
LIV. Whenever I sang karaoke or sang in a family party, people would always say I sing well. I accepted those compliments and all, but I really just thought they were saying all that because I was a kid and usually you boost a kid's confidence, right? It wasn't until I was... 12 or 13 that it dawned on me that I can actually sing decently.
LV. I love playing mean people. And I love playing out angry scenes. That kind of feeling just comes to me naturally, which is weird, but yes. If there's one thing I can't do it's to cry on cue. Or play out an emotional scene and find myself crying.
LVI. When I was little, I'd often read descriptions of how Scorpios (my zodiac sign, of course ^^) are, and I'd go - "D: That doesn't fit me at all!". Now I have to say I'm a true Scorpio.
LVII. I often rush things. Especially tests, unless I think I'm good at the subject and thus double-check 1000000000000000x.
LVIII. I love hot water like you wouldn't believe. I love long, hot showers, and washing the dishes with insanely hot water. It relaxes me.
LIX. I used to have straight - unbelievably straight - hair when I was little. I can't put it up in a bun because it just would keep on tumbling down. But now, since I haven't cared for it (I thought there was no use because it wasn't even pretty - oh, my self-esteem), it's now on the tad bit wavy side.
LX. I tell people that my face is a perfect circle, which is ironic because I can never draw a decent one.
LXI. I vaguely remember there being a point in my life in which Math was my favorite subject. >_>
LXII. Harry/Luna = OTP for life. I've never loved a ship so much. They just fit.
LXIV. I always say that if I ever pursue performing beyond high school productions, it's my absolute dream to play Mimi from "Rent". Just to sing "Another Day" onstage would be so, so amazing.
LXV. I adore Astronomy - it's my favorite branch of Science, and I really like watching Astronomy documentaries the most (theoretical physics at a close second - though the math never goes through my head, but I love the concepts). When I was in third grade my only wish for a present (since I was top of the honor roll) was an Astronomy book. I got it and I was the happiest kid EVAH. It had the cool pictures and everything.
LXVI. My dream house is one in which I have my own study. That's all I really want, seriously. For Doctor Who fans, remember that study they hid from the werewolves? Haha, yes. I want a Victorian style study with a terrace that has a telescope. It'd be awesome.
LXVII. The most frustrating thing about moving from Winnipeg to Surrey was the change of education system. Seriously, provincials? What the heck. I'm thankful though, because in here it's much more challenging, which is what I need.
LXVIII. I only fangirl like some utterly insane being with my sister. Because she fangirls like an utterly insane being as well.
LXIX. Not about me, BUT - when we went to Koreatown (after a lot of insistence on my part) last summer, people kept on greeting my mom in Korean, thinking she was, well, Korean. I don't think she looks Korean at all, so I was very amused, but not for long because my mom "borrowed" $30 from me to buy a t-shirt.
LXX. First impressions of me are always the same, haha. I'm very quiet. People who know me now and that I consider good friends won't think that, but they probably don't remember that once upon a time I was that girl who sat in the corner staring moodily at everyone. xDD I can still be that girl. Only one of my friends still says that her first impression of me was "scary". And it's true. I take school so seriously, I get ticked off when people chatter away in class. Focus, people, honestly. >_>
LXXI. Geography. I love Geography, it's one of those academic things that I love, like Astronomy. As a result, atlases and International Relations stuff thrills me like no other (why hello there Model UN). I don't know why, haha, but it does. There's just something so cool about... countries interacting with each other. It's like having fandom clashes.
LXXII. I've only been to two Model UN-related things in my life, but I'm determined to run a conference in my last year of high school, and I think it's something I want to do in university. It's so fun, there's this giddy feeling with pretending you're a diplomat. And the hot guys. ;___; I swear, my first Model UN has spawned a million and one inside jokes about Luxembourg's hair (and hotness especially wearing glasses and my tendency to stalk him. HE'S GOOD-LOOKING K and it's not my fault he conveniently works in a movie theatre)and Czech Republic's very fitting polo shirt and Spain and his adorable geekyness and Russia being Russia and kickass period. It's one of those things you'll be thankful you tried out.
LXXIII. My main fandom when I was little was The Powerpuff Girls. My room was plastered with them, and everything I wore. I LOVE Buttercup, though at first I was only forced to (at first it was Blossom).
LXXIV. I'm the type who'll do her homework during free time in class so that I don't have to do anything when I get home. I'm always like that, especially in Math class. Oh, Math class. That class makes me realize how much focus I can have.
LXXV. I can't style my hair, I don't know how to apply on make-up, and half the time my mother still insists on picking my clothes. I appreciate it, because thanks to her I'm getting a liking to putting outfits togeher, but sometimes I just feel lazy and want to put on a simple tanktop-hoodie ensemble. This she does not understand.
LXXVI. When I was little, I'll make magazines for fun. And comic books. Colored, stapled together, and all.
LXXVII. I can't cook at all, and I'm honestly very, very far from being domestic. And I don't think I really want to be? I want to be more of the strong, independent type. I want to be a woman that's in a powerful position that puts her in an equal ranking with men, you know?
LXXVIII. I'm a Slytherin. Actually, well, I'm a Ravenclaw, considering my love for learning and knowledge, but the amount of ambition I have, thanks to my upbringing, is immense. And I can be insanely competitive, academic-wise.
LXXIX. When grades are posted up, I scan the list to see the highest grade, then I check mine, then go back to that highest grade and try to figure out who it is, calculate the difference, what I need to do to get a higher grade than that, all that jazz. >_>
LXXX. I am clumsy. I am not an athlete. I am not fit. I dislike sports very much. Gym was the worst class ever. I hate the BC education system for making 150 hours of physical activity a freaking requirement to graduate. Thankfully I choreograph dances with my sister most weekends.
LXXXI. Speaking of choreography, I've tried to learn the following dances and failed "Purple Line" - DBSK, "Mirotic" - DBSK. But I am making progress with "One More Time, OK?" - CSJH The Grace and especially "Nobody" - Wonder Girls. =P
LXXXII. One can never have enough chocolate.
LXXXIII. Even numbers rule my world. They're so... organized, unlike odd numbers - one's left hanging.
LXXXIV. I really don't like being in front of the camera. Well, photos-wise. I very much prefer being the photographer. Though, to be honest, I'm much better at taking pictures of food than people. =/
LXXXV. I know it might seem bizarre and sadist (?) of me, but I like feeling pressured. Just the right kind and amount of pressure, if that makes sense, in terms of academics. It motivates me and pushes me to work harder - heck, at times I feel thankful there's even something I'm working for.
LXXXVI. I've been in Canada for five whole years and sometimes my Filipino accent still slips in with certain English words. I do not understand why it happens, when I'm already losing my Tagalog vocab.
LXXXVII. I don't like clinging onto the past - I'm a very future-minded person. I'm too much of a future-minded person. I'm all about goals and to-do lists and must-do's by this dates.
LXXXVIII. Because of the above, I feel very iffy about keeping in touch with people. It's hard to explain. I just... really hate it when drifting apart happens and you have to deal with that painful awkwardness when you talk again. So sometimes, I just cut off all ties. ;__; For me, it's much easier, especially when I've gone through not-so-good-times with the person. =/ This makes me awful, I know. Real-life friendships to me, though, are hardly ever stable. This is why I treasure my FList like no other.
LXXXIX. I am painfully boring to talk to on MSN. My quietness in real-life reflects on IM, so I do apologize if you find yourself chatting to me. >_> I get encouraged to talk up more, though, with fangirling. :D
XC. I abuse the following: >_>, XD, :D, ^^, <3, ♥, \o/, and with pride. I abuse the first one the most - I actually have an equivalent expression in real-life.
XCI. The best smell in the whole entire world is the smell of roast beef, gravy, and mashed potatoes. I feel so Canadian when I eat it for dinner. xDD
XCII. When people call me, I do a little grunt, haha, instead of going "What?" coherently, I kind of say "Whut?" or "Hmph?". Which makes people think I didn't acknowledge them, when really, I did.
XCIII. I can write neatly, really, I can. But when an idea has come to mind and I just feel inspired, or I'm writing a rough draft for an assignment it's always messy. Really messy. Plus I always must use a pencil and I'm left handed, so there's always that stain on my hand and the paper, too.
XCIV. Writing on paper > typing on the computer. It just gives more of the writer vibe, if that makes sense, to me. x) I feel more of a writer when I write on paper, it feels more natural.
XCV. I am deathly scared of driving. and growing up, really I got my learner's license, which means I can go driving accompanied by an adult, but still. I don't want to. >_>
XCVI. Thanks to KPop, and like most fangirls, I find myself wanting to learn Korean. But I keep telling myself "nuuuu, you have to get to at least intermediate French you dolt you don't even know how to swear in French yet". So. I'd like to take it in uni, though, and know Hangul really well before that. My favorite Korean word? 영원히 (yeongweonhi).
XCVII. This song, and well, the whole musical (song cycle?) in general has inspired me so much. It's made me feel happy - overwhelmed with actual happiness with how inspired I felt. I think I teared up hearing the song for the first time. It just hit me, I don't even know. I love it so much. My favorite musical theatre-related thing ever. Evereverever.
XCVIII. I love knowing random facts, thanks to reading knowledge books when I was little. x) Thus, I love "Jeopardy", though I don't watch it enough. I love "Reach For The Top" more, and I just wish our school can join it already.
XCIX. I have this tendency to be careless with things I should take care of more. Half the time I don't even mean it, but I swear a scratch just pops up on my iPod or the closet got messy without me even noticing it and I don't even think I really did it? *not making sense*
C. I am one true nerd, and I love it. I really do. Sometimes, I wish I can just stay in my world of theories and facts and never go into the real world and just study about it, never venture out into it. =P I think this is the part of me that makes me such a Ravenclaw.
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