dont, dont even..
i'm feeling like crap. just cause like idk, my parents really upset me. and i honestly dont know what to do about it.
actually everything is making me upset. i hate it. grrr. F You All !!
But i had a good day, kind of.. i did laundry this morning. i woke up with shawn, even thou i was so tired. but i got my lazy ass up. and then i called every where. got a vet appointment for Shawnathan, my hamster. haha. i know. but then i called my gram. and my gay father. then i called walmart, cause them gay peoples .. never gave me a schedule. so i work tomorrow from 830am to 530 .. which actually is better for me so i can see shawn.
but oh well. acutally i am so pissed right now.
" Jill i am so sorry about what happened, sometimes guys can be the biggest assholes. and i am sorry this all came out, i really am. and i know how it feels.. kind of. but you can talk to me if you want, promise. i love you girrllly girll."
i am so tired. and i have to wake up at 8 tomorrow, for gay work. gay gay gay. hopefully my mom can give me money for some clothes cause i am broke and this sucks so bad. i hate it. and i have to ask shawn for some money for lunch tomorrow but i hate to. and like i would have had money but.. my dad is an asshole. cause he says he is leaving tonight and shit. i dont know. i fuckking hate the way they act.
i dont fuckking know.
This weekend was going to be good. like i totally wanted to go and see shawn's brother's. but shawn already told his dad that we'd going to this race. and i want to go but like Kev is going and like shawn is racing and stuff. well he'll be in the car so. i dont know. i am just going to go with him. he actually asked me. so i'll take advantage of it. haha.
welp ! i am tired. and a long day of work tomorrow. soo... well that's that.
Good Night..
Sleep Tight <3
P.s Shawn i love you. and thanks for the present tonite ! it's wonderful. i know you like it too !
ahhhaahahaha.