Jan 01, 2004 18:55
I--I don't know what to expect. What to do. I'm at home, waiting, Brooke the only reason I'm still sane about all this. She's in the kitchen, making me something to drink. So I'll calm down. But how can I calm down when I don't know what is going on, that Ben is hurt and he may not let me be around him?
When Mitch left me the message that Ben was on his way, that he was bringing him back to me, I freaked. My heart started to pound and all the anger I've felt over Ben disappearing is gone. All I want is for him to come home. It's all I want.
Hey Dog knows something is up, so does the puppy. Okay she's asleep and is oblivious but Hey Dog knows--he loves Ben, maybe he senses...I don't know, I just don't know.
Brooke just came in and handed me a drink. Says there's a car that just pulled into the driveway. I am so nervous, I feel like I'm going to be sick. Or cry. Or both.
Ben, what happened? Why did you leave? Please just tell me, just be all right, that's all that matters...
I need you.
Linds, opening the front door