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i dont know now, if i should leave him. why does it always happen the same way with everyone? why do i always stay? because i dont know how to be cold to the one that i love. i dont know how to make a choice and walk away. no advice is helping, either is the venting. locking it inside makes it worse. only a conclusion will make this better....or possibly worse. i know whats right for me. but my heart tells me stay...it will be okay and things will get better. because the times that we have are so amazing together....more wonderful than ive ever felt. the first time he hurts me with this shit....im gone. or if i realise i cant handle it... im gone.
blah i hate life today.
blah i hate life today.