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Dec 01, 2004 22:24

Pause ~ im freezing cold and upset...anyone in the mood to knock me out. i'll give you a dollar. my right side is swollen in the place where it happened...i need to talk to someone, but nobody's here with me. enjoy your sleep!

Rewind ~ well, Daniel and Justine r the only ones that kinda know what's going on with me right now. go to them with your questions please. today wasn't the greatest of days, but u learn to make do right? well, that's what i was taught at least. met at Starbucks early this morning. i was later than usual though cuz i took my sweet time getting ready...lol. i only really changed my pants and wet my hair so it would stay out of my way today. i walked with Spencer to Burger King and we talked...about the same thing though. he always starts by asking, "so how are you doing?" and then things kinda go back on the path from there. he always asks the same questions and i always give the same answers...i put on the show and ppl applaud. what more is there to say? school was crap, crap, and more crap. Daniel helped me write my essay though (thank you!). that was a record time for me. wait a minute...the CAHSEE was less time. nvmd. hang on! this one actually beat the CAHSEE cuz i didnt even know half the stuff i was talking about. i basically came up with stuff right on the spot...well, that and Daniel fed me ideas and sentences. (again, thank you!) missed church tonight. i had practice and my dad took me to drive. we went to the Elk Lodge in West Covina. at least, i think that's what it's called. they had a decent sized parking lot and it was rather ausing driving and everything. i didnt use my mirrors a lot though...that's bad huh? my dad said i was pretty good though. i wasn't shaking like in Mika's car. i was kidna surprised he let me drive the truck. that thing is huge! Mika's car was a WHOLE LOT SMALLER than the Dodge. it was fun though. ewwww! i think my brother's coach likes my mom. and the scary thing is : i think she likes him too. that is nothing but trouble though. my dad will just say she was "picking up on guys instead of watching her son", but she's not! all we do is sit there and talk to each other and the parents. the coaches are cool so we talk to them too. nothing's wrong with that. well, im not gonna say anythign bout it to my dad as long as he doesnt cause trouble for my mom. he's helping me out by teaching me to drive. im not losing this opportunity.

Fast Forward ~ tomorrow should be uneventful, if im lucky. i think the girls r doing something on Friday night. Mika, i know u and Joy had something planned, but u can always join us if u want to. i dont wanna go to Michelle's cosmic bowling thingy-ma-jig. i wanted to go with u guys, but then i found out she was going and i kinda changed my mind...besides, it's kinda expensive and crud. im kinda happy she invited me, but it's not worth it to go and have my hopes raised again for something that will just go back to normal on Monday anyways. Saturday is also our first Saturday practice. that's gonna make me tired if i go the night before. my dad is taking me and my brother for the day Staurday. Sunday is church time for me...i think. if anyone wants to do anything, give me a call k.

Play ~ now im gonna go to bed and sleep until the dreams come. let's see if i get the happy ones tonight. they always come when i dotn wish for them, so they probably wont tonight. i miss him so much. things shouldnt be like this. it gives a whole new meaning to the phrase, "so close, yet so far away." OUT!
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