Pause, Rewind, Play, Fast Forward...
Pause ~ im really tired right now...thank God for the late start tomorrow... u know whats weird? lately ive been finding myself envying others for what they have in their lives. sometimes they dont even realize that what they have is such a special and precious thing. they r so fortunate to have more than what they NEED. they all look happy...why cant i be like that? oh well, there's always the option of pretending...like he asked of me once, "do me a favor and smile next time i see you."
Rewind ~ today was a blurr...kinda. wanted to talk to Justin after school today, but he got checked out early or something...whatever. it's really starting to bug me now...worrying begins again. i started biting my nials again. i only do it now when i get real nervous of worried bout something...this is not good at all! got my uniform and warm-ups today. lol. i was so excited bout the big lockers now too. i got one with a mirror in it. hopefully ill get one in the team room next year. stupid basketball is trying to take it over this year. bah! like that'll ever happen. LMAO! Samadhi seemed really mad at us not doing the drills correctly. first it was the balls missing and then this. we wasted over an hour with crap today. the drills weren't hard or anythign like that...they were just really badly organized. that's what i think anyways. Andrew couldnt pick me up cuz his siter was having her baby tonight...yay! that's good for him. he'll be an uncle...lol. Andrew, an uncle? ok then. so i got a ride home with Sophia. her mom seems really cool. lol. she want really looking at the road while she drove though, so that kinda worried me. Katie called me to let me know there was no practice tosay and i almost broke down in the parking lot at school. i miss them already!
Play ~ nothing doing right now. just drinking some OJ and im almost ready to go to bed. right after i get offline i think. listening to Something Like Silas: "Divine Invitation". EMOSEWA CD! lol.
Fast-Forward ~ tomorrow i really wanna talk to Justin...or at least "be" with him. lol. sounds stupid and funny at the same time, but it's true. well, tomorrow is late start so maybe some coffee will do me good? or some apple cider...yummy! im not sure if y'all r goin tomorrow morning, like always, but ill call when i get there and you dont k. ill just end up walkin by myself or something...OUT!
Rewind ~ today was a blurr...kinda. wanted to talk to Justin after school today, but he got checked out early or something...whatever. it's really starting to bug me now...worrying begins again. i started biting my nials again. i only do it now when i get real nervous of worried bout something...this is not good at all! got my uniform and warm-ups today. lol. i was so excited bout the big lockers now too. i got one with a mirror in it. hopefully ill get one in the team room next year. stupid basketball is trying to take it over this year. bah! like that'll ever happen. LMAO! Samadhi seemed really mad at us not doing the drills correctly. first it was the balls missing and then this. we wasted over an hour with crap today. the drills weren't hard or anythign like that...they were just really badly organized. that's what i think anyways. Andrew couldnt pick me up cuz his siter was having her baby tonight...yay! that's good for him. he'll be an uncle...lol. Andrew, an uncle? ok then. so i got a ride home with Sophia. her mom seems really cool. lol. she want really looking at the road while she drove though, so that kinda worried me. Katie called me to let me know there was no practice tosay and i almost broke down in the parking lot at school. i miss them already!
Play ~ nothing doing right now. just drinking some OJ and im almost ready to go to bed. right after i get offline i think. listening to Something Like Silas: "Divine Invitation". EMOSEWA CD! lol.
Fast-Forward ~ tomorrow i really wanna talk to Justin...or at least "be" with him. lol. sounds stupid and funny at the same time, but it's true. well, tomorrow is late start so maybe some coffee will do me good? or some apple cider...yummy! im not sure if y'all r goin tomorrow morning, like always, but ill call when i get there and you dont k. ill just end up walkin by myself or something...OUT!