Adulting
I got a notice today that its been 21 years since I joined LJ. I miss this space, the simplicity it seemed to bring at the time. Before algorithms, ads and knowing the difference of whats true and whats complete bs.
21 years. A whole lifetime for someone born and now of legal drinking age. A lot of my posts are private, it was still the hardest time of my life. Harder than the loss of my pops, harder than my cancer JoURneY, harder than the loss of Quinn, etc. Breaking a heart of someone you love will forever rank way up top for me. I guess thats what true love is?
About to go thru it again, my mama. I always thought my pops would pass first and THEN, THEN Id have my mama for at least another decade. Ah, but now MSA has been the diagnosis for her and Im going to lose her well before a decade. Is this adulting? Is this 'getting' to grow older? Loving and losing over and over? Yes, thats what Ive gathered thus far. I GET to love, I GET to grieve, because I loved. Purpose.
21 years. A whole lifetime for someone born and now of legal drinking age. A lot of my posts are private, it was still the hardest time of my life. Harder than the loss of my pops, harder than my cancer JoURneY, harder than the loss of Quinn, etc. Breaking a heart of someone you love will forever rank way up top for me. I guess thats what true love is?
About to go thru it again, my mama. I always thought my pops would pass first and THEN, THEN Id have my mama for at least another decade. Ah, but now MSA has been the diagnosis for her and Im going to lose her well before a decade. Is this adulting? Is this 'getting' to grow older? Loving and losing over and over? Yes, thats what Ive gathered thus far. I GET to love, I GET to grieve, because I loved. Purpose.