Happiness
Wow I am so happy that I finally let Josh go. I mean his lil head games of leaveing then comming back just screwed me up so I am so glad I left him. Brian makes me so much happier. When I smile it is for real. The only part that is sad is that I am afraid to fall for Brian and then get heart broken. Yesterday at school I bought Brian a flower and sent it to him and then after lunch I saw him and he had bought me a flower. I cried cuzz I didnt expect it from him. I guess he used some of his lunch money. I was like awwwwwww. Then Lys, Crystal, Ross, and Augden and I were in the Library and Lys got a flower from her bf Ross. I was like awwww. Then Augden had to go and be a prick and take a bit out of it. Ya kno just the thought of Ross gettin her a flower was so sweet and he ruined it for her. That pissed me off so bad. I almost punched him. I went to the VFW hall wit Lys, Jen, Jess and Kristin to set up for the party I was sappose to go to tonight. It looked really good. Then we went to the mall and Jen, Leah and me got out nails done. And it hurt cuzz the lady was going so fast. Then Lys slept over. What a night. Today I had to work for 8 hours and I am so tired. I am kinda glad I didnt go to the party cuzz I would have been so tired to do anything. Today at work I talked to Jesse and we talked about so much. I told himi about Josh and Brian and he said that I should have left Josh a long time ago cuzz he could tell he screwed me up. I said thats mean cuzz it was the leaveing then comming back that screwed me up. I said Josh was a good guy but he didnt kno what he wanted. But I also said that Brian is better because there is something in him that Josh dont have. And that is, he knows what he wants and he goes after what he wants. He makes me so happy. Jesse said he wanted to me him just so he could say congrts. on gettin a great girl. AWWW. Jesse is so great. If I was like 20 I would so date him. Lolz. Nooo. But ya while I was at work Brian's parents came in and I sat with them for a lil and just talked. I love him parents. There arnt like Josh's cuzz I can talk to Brian's. Josh's I was so shy. I dont kno why tho. My relationship with Brian is so much stronger then the one I had with Josh. Josh knew me way to well and I knew him to well too. So it made is a "ya" relationship. I just wish we had a better friendship. O well.
Lys~ I am so happy for u and Ross. I hope u guys last for a while. BFFE
Crystal~ Hun I love u no matter what! BFFE
Joce~ U and Ryan r so cute! BFFL
~!*Sami*!~